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On November 6, 2010, I visited the doctor after not having a menses for nearly 90 days. The doctor was concerned about my health. She went over my weight records she had on file for the past three years and it was upsetting. My weight had continued to climb and climb, gradually and steadily, throughout the years. Then, she pointed out my acne on my face. Now I was embarassed. Acne had been something I have dealt with since I was a teenager. I sat in my chair not knowing what to say. Her comments stirred anger within me, however, I knew she was right. It was the kick in the butt I so needed to hear. Then, she asked about my diet. I was ready to give it to her here, because I felt I really had been doing well. I recited the breakfast fruit smoothies I had been making, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, and the boxed or frozen meals Jon and I were sharing for supper. To my dismay, this didn't impress her one bit. She shook her head, "There's way too many carbs there girl."
I left the doctor's office that day after doing some bloodwork to examine my hormone levels with a pamphlet in hand about PCOS, strict orders to cut out carbs, and an empty feeling inside. The empty feeling can be described by a number of things; first carbs were my fave. Ever. Second, I knew I had to change, but it's so hard to hear it from someone else, my fragile ego damaged. Third, now what? All I wanted in 2010 was to become pregnant and those hopes seemed so so far away.
I filled a prescription the next week for hormone therapy to restart my cycle as my FSH hormone and LH hormone levels were terribly off. Also, I shared the news with my husband and family. I could see some fear in his and my mom's eyes. There really was something inbalanced, something that had the ability, if left untreated, to torment me throughout the years.
I packed up my hamburger helpers, brown rice, pasta, instant mashed potatoes into a bag and gave them to my mom and dad. After all, they were building a new home and appreciated the 'easy' food. My grocery bill doubled and my fridge exploded. I learned that an easy way to shop low-carb at the grocery store is to stay in the outside aisles, usually containing produce, dairy, and meat. I picked up the Atkins diet book at B & N. I asked for a low-carb cookbook for christmas. On 12/24, I decided to give up alcohol too. Too often, it either led to the munchies, hangovers, or overconsumption.
Today, I am armed with these tools, as well as fatsecret. I have made it through Christmas and continue to lose weight. I am in control. I have the will to make a change and better my life. To better my life for myself, my present family, my future children, my work, my passion, my drive. I welcome 2011 with open arms. This will be the year. I know it.
Diet Calendar Entries for 30 December 2010:
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1371 kcal
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Fat: 88.78g | Prot: 93.08g | Carb: 48.76g.
Breakfast: hormel breakfast sausage, 100% Liquid Egg Whites, Egg Substitute (Liquid), Deli Thin Sliced Smoked Ham, Fancy Sharp Cheddar Cheese Shredded. Lunch: lean cuisine steak portabello, Ranch Salad Dressing, Romaine Salad. Dinner: great value italian style meatballs, cauliflower rice. Snacks/Other: cool whip, sabra hummus, Light Garlic & Herb Cheese Wedges, Mushrooms, AdvantEdge Carb Control Shake - French Vanilla. more...
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2575 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Resting - 16 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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