Ha. Today has been like the worst day ever for nutrition. I didn't eat breakfast before leaving home (I often don't), but because I was trying to keep the pricetag down and our school cafeteria can be a bit pricey, I decided on vending-machine breakfast. The least of many evils was a set of Mrs. Freshley's chocolate cupcakes. Go figure.
Then I took my friend Breanna out for lunch. We hit up Taco Bell because it's cheap and close.
Tonight is the English Department Gala, so I'll eat whatever they feed us. Here's hoping it's better than what I've eaten so far!
On the other hand, at least my weight is still coming down, and I'm making progress on the 5-minute-plank-in-30-days program. I kept starting and then forgetting to do it, so I finally posted the 30-day planking schedule in my kitchen. It seems to be working. Yesterday was day 3, with 30 seconds in plank position. It went well.
The idea is to get my core muscles back together, which will improve my performance on the bike (because, no matter what anybody says, it is always about the bike). My peak performances this year were a 28-MPH solo sprint and a stiff climb at around 15 MPH. I'd like to best those by quite a bit next year.
I don't ever expect to be a really blistering sprinter -- my upper body strength will probably never be that great, and that makes a difference in the sprint -- but I do think I'm turning into a respectable rouleur and I continue to Climb Well For My Weight.
In other news, I have been wrestling with a bad episode of depression for the past several days. I suppose it has probably been going on for a while and I have just been pushing it to the back burner.
I notice that a lot of the old anorexic thinking is there, just beneath the surface, waiting for moments like that to sweep in. I had one day that I stepped on the scale for no good reason (just being obsessive), noted a slight uptick in my weight, and then the fallout of all those thoughts came after.
Thus far, I have (obviously, if you look at my food diaries) kept the behavioral aspect at bay (even on days when I've had no appetite to speak of), but I am realizing that it might be time to come up with some more proactive solutions for dealing with both the depression and the eating disorder stuff.
Diet Calendar Entries for 05 December 2013:
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1526 kcal
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Fat: 61.54g | Prot: 46.50g | Carb: 196.59g.
Breakfast: Mrs. Freshley's Creme Filled Chocolate Cupcakes. Lunch: Taco Bell Crunchy Taco, Taco Bell Crunchwrap Supreme. Dinner: Thin Crust Cheese Pizza. more...
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2413 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Bicycling (moderate) - 13/mph - 1 hour and 5 minutes, Resting - 14 hours and 55 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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