Help!!!!! Last night I reacted badly to something and had an old fashioned pig-out! I'm here to try to figure out what happened to me last night. And I want it not to spill over to today; so I'm going to do some really heavy self-analysis. Here are my thought as to why I did it --
One, I haven't had time to come on here. I think I need to give myself a certain amount of time on here a day for my own mental health, but I've had the kids home; so I haven't had time. When they're around, I can't concentrate as well. I need to keep getting up to help them, lose my train of thought, you know what I mean. The daily feedback and conversations that I have with everyone on here are so helpful and keep me grounded. I am not going to let myself go for so long anymore without talking on here. I think it's as important to me as exercise. I know this weight-loss is partly a learning process, and writing on here, giving encouragement and getting encouragement, helps me. I don't want to let it slip.
Two, I tend to react when I get prettier. I have always had an unhealthy attitude towards it. And two nights ago I had the first strange reaction. I went shopping for myself because my hubby took the boys and told me to go enjoy myself. So I went happily and found myself a nice pair of pants, on sale of course. Then I bought jackets for the boys, also on sale. And then I had a very strange experience for me. I bought fine jewelry. I never buy stuff like that for myself! And what enticed me was that this store was going out of business and had an 80% off sale. Well, I spent two hours in there, found a nice pair of earrings and a bracelet. The next day I felt like an idiot for spending all that money. And of course, I can't return the stuff. My hubby always wants me to buy stuff for myself, but I don't enjoy doing it. And even though it was a good deal (I think it was, I'm not sure!) I feel like a fool for giving into those feelings. I feel like it was a financial pig-out. And I feel terrible about it. I think it partly led to the reaction I had last night.
Three, I saw my family yesterday afternoon. And my mom looked soooo happy that I got thinner! She loves clothes and is very elegant and thin. And she really wants me to lose weight, not just for looks but also for health. My mom, my sisters, my brother -- they all could be as heavy as me. But they watch what they eat! They all have discipline that I don't have. And for some reason, when I get the compliments, I tend to want to blow things and eat too much. That was definitely partly responsible for my reaction last night.
Four, I was terribly allergic. I have a tendency to get allergies, and last night I couldn't get rid of the feeling. I felt better after I took two forms of antihistamines. And then, actually, the eating made me feel better. Sometimes I think my body plays tricks on me and makes me think I'm sick in order to get me to eat! Next time that happens, I'm going to do an extra hour on the treadmill instead of eat!
Okay, guys. Thanks for letting me get that all out. I needed to get it out. That already helps. And anyone who has the desire to read my who life story (LOL) that I just wrote, thank you! Anyone have any thoughts? I don't want to repeat that sequence of events again!
Diet Calendar Entries for 22 December 2008:
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3003 kcal
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Fat: 122.33g | Prot: 132.96g | Carb: 396.46g.
Breakfast: olive oil, alternative bagel, water, oroweat country whole wheat. Lunch: lean cuisine roasted turkey breast. Dinner: salmon, shrimp, alternative bagel, jello pudding dark chocolate. Snacks/Other: kraft american cheese, almond oil, peanut butter, bread country wheat, kettle korn, asparagus, orange, equal, jello pudding sugar free. more...
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2329 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Shopping - 2 hours, Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 1 hour and 30 minutes, Resting - 12 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Did you have an allergic reaction to something you ate? Or were you having allergy problems before you ate?
22 Dec 08 by member: redone750
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I don't know what did it. I just felt itchy inside and out, like I wanted to climb the walls. Sometimes I think my body is tricking me into eating because, after I eat, I'll feel better. Do you ever get that? But I am an allergic person, always have been. I had childhood asthma that I thankfully grew out of. Now I take a daily allergy medicine. But yesterday, it just didn't work. I don't feel bad now, though, thank God!
22 Dec 08 by member: debbra
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You just really need to make sure that you did not have an allergic reaction to something you ate. Food allergies can be deadly. Did you start feeling itchy and such within 30 mintues after you ate something?
22 Dec 08 by member: redone750
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ok, pig outs ARE bad BUT they happen. We cant beat ourselves up about it. You know it happened now just do what you can to get right back on track as fast as possible. Every now and then a pig out actually HELPS your body.
As for the buying yourself jewelry....i dont think you should feel bad at all. You are working SO hard to lose this weight and every now and then you need to break down and award yourself for the hard work you are doing. (was the store going out of business Whitehall jewelers??? there is one in my area going out of business and i will tell you right now....im getting a chocolate diamond and pave diamond ring for Xmas due to their 80% off sale heheh)
Everytime you look at your bracelet, or wear those earrings just be THAT much more motivated to lose weight. Make those your new reminders to keep it up....well the hard work up, but the weight down. =)
i have faith that youll get right back on track
22 Dec 08 by member: Owndisaster
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You know, as mothers, we just put ourselves last. We take care of everyone else's needs first. We feel like if we do something for ourselves that we are somehow robbing our family of something. I know, because I am like that. I never buy myself anything, I let myself go including my health and weight. But, you know what? We do deserve it. We deserve to buy ourselves nice things. We deserve to feel good about our bodies. If we don't take care of ourselves, then who is going to be around to take care of our families? You have worked so hard to lose weight and if you are able to buy youself something nice than do it! You didn't run out and buy yourself a car without thinking... You got 80% off jewelry. Who could pass that up? LOL! Your husband is glad you did. You wear those earrings and that bracelet and be proud of yourself!
22 Dec 08 by member: redone750
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And shame on us husbands for letting our wives feel like they can put themselves last…you are so right redone750
22 Dec 08 by member: -JR-
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Thanks guys so much for the encouragement! You don't know how important it is to me! I lean on it like crutches! Yeap, it is Whitehall! They had a diamond and gold bracelet and a diamond and gold earings, and I bought them! It kind of freaks me out! But I do want to enjoy them! As far as my allergies, I don't think I'm allergic to any kind of food. It was probably pollen or something. I really don't know! It was weird. But I have to say I'm feeling better now. (By the way, gals, somehow this website on the home page doesn't always display everything for me. I was surprised when I came back to my journal that I had so many responses because they didn't show up. Does that happen to you?) I can tell you, though, as I think about it, coming on here is probably the most important thing to me. I just need to devote time to it on a daily basis, regardless of kids and other responsibilities. I already feel soooo much better than I did when I woke up!!
22 Dec 08 by member: debbra
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you know, they say Diamonds are a girls best friend and during weight loss EVERYONE needs a best friend to rely on ;oP
22 Dec 08 by member: Owndisaster
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The good thing I think is that you're making yourself aware of why you had the pigout, and what led you to that point. So next time, prevention will be key. You'll know what causes you to break, and you'll be aware of it, therefore you can do something about it. Which, like you said, is an hour or something on the treadmill. And don't worry, it was one time, you're back on here. Everything's going to be okay. And remember, you're doing this for YOU, not for anyone else. If you're doing it for anyone else, you're doing it for the wrong reasons. We're here for you!!!
22 Dec 08 by member: FakePlasticLala
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and if your best friend gives you diamonds...all the better!!!
22 Dec 08 by member: -JR-
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Thank you guys sooo much. I'll say it again, this boosts me up. Having everyone here for me makes me feel so much stronger. And also writing down all my thoughts. Even when I have a successful day, I think it's important. I need the camaraderie. You guys are the best!!! I love this new world where everyone understands me so well!!!
22 Dec 08 by member: debbra
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Hey Deb, If I skip a meal or go too long without eating, I can't stuff enough food into my face fast enough. Chocolates, Salty, sweet, whatever...Not sure if that happened to you yesterday, but just thought I would bring it to your attention.
22 Dec 08 by member: redone750
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You know, that's very possible. Because the day before yesterday I ate very little. Maybe I was having a reaction. Eating little on Saturday, due to lack of time, then heavy exercise yesterday morning, then not eating much at the party -- yeap, that might be it! Thanks! I hadn't thought about that. I am scared to go onto the scale although this is my weigh-in day. But I am going to go right now. I might do it a couple of times today, and then I'll take my lowest number. Is that cheating?
22 Dec 08 by member: debbra
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Nope- Not cheating!!!! I do the same thing! LOL!
22 Dec 08 by member: redone750
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Well, I just weighed myself. And there is no way I am going to record that number. It said I gained three and half pounds from last night. I find that hard to believe. I might even wait a couple of days and not weigh in on my challenges till then. Hopefully by later today it will show a little less!
22 Dec 08 by member: debbra
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haha this might sound gross but.....wait till youve....used the restroom. =) perhaps weigh yourself first thing tomorrow morning. On my weigh in days I always weigh myself first thing in the morning, half naked, right before i get in the shower. So im always wearing the same thing and its always at the same time.
22 Dec 08 by member: Owndisaster
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I had that thought! I just don't trust that number right now! This is embarrassing! LOL
22 Dec 08 by member: debbra
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dont be embarrassed. who DOESNT have a bad week? Blame Christmas. Its all Santas fault!! hehehe
22 Dec 08 by member: Owndisaster
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I feel like I am getting over it! As long as I learn from these experiences, good and bad, I am going to be happy with myself. Boy, it's good to talk about it!!!!
22 Dec 08 by member: debbra
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excatly, you have to make mistakes to learn and its GOOD you are learning from them. youll be fine.
22 Dec 08 by member: Owndisaster
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