redwinelover's Journal, 14 November 2010

Well... hit my goal and now surpassed it. I'm happy with this, but truthfully, I'd feel better about the number if I was working out. Can't help but wonder how much of this weight loss is due to loss of muscle. Nothing I can do about it for a few more weeks. My husband just told me my doctor said I wouldn't be hiking until Jan. That one was news to me, I'll get clarification at my appointment on the 3rd. Who KNOWS what all I was told early on in this process and just don't remember! lol...

Anyway... actually feeling pretty good. Didn't do anything today, so no test of my strength or endurance, though... Mostly sat here and watched movies. Swiffered the floors downstairs...not a lot of energy or effort in something like that, though. Next weekend is going to be really busy for my husband! He wants to rent one of those carpet cleaners and move all the furniture and clean the carpeting. I reminded him a few times that I won't be able to help with something like that at all. And he assured me he knows. And then the whole house needs cleaning. I can do a little bit - like clean the counters and sinks and dust. And swiffer! But that's just about the extent of it. I want to empty out the refrigerator and give that a good cleaning. I'd like to go through the kitchen pantry, but that's just not going to happen. Oh, and my beloved work out room/everything else room needs a big cleaning. That's where my sister-in-law and her partner will be staying. Wait, I think they're legally married... Minnesota... okay, think so, and her wife will be sleeping. My brother will get a sofa and my niece and her baby will probably stay in my daughter's room with her. I hope so, anyway! I'm going to have to start planning meals and do some shopping. It'll be nice having company, but none of them know anything about my surgery. Nor are we planning on telling them unless we have to! Personally, I think I can hide a lot of stuff, but these breasts... kinda hard to hide! Of course, my husband thinks it's just me.. that they don't look big. To me? Yeah, they look big! lol... I guess I'm so used to "nothing". Oh, I can deal with it, for sure! Just don't know what I'd say if someone says, Hey, where did ya get those boobs? What do I say? Scottsdale?? My husband? I could try the old, It's strange, but as I started peri-menopause, my breasts began to grow! (I've actually heard that one before). I don't even think I could pull off the, "Oh no, I've always had breasts, just weren't as noticeable when I was heavier." Which might be able to work had they NOT known me much thinner years ago. Ahhh... we'll see. Maybe no one will notice, or at least, not comment. One can hope.

Swelling seems to get getting better. I'm really hanging on to the hope I might be able to wear jeans by next week. Everything seems to be healing well and I'm feeling good. Life is GOOD. My husband asked me if I had to do it all over again, would I? I laughed! I said, in a heartbeat! I'd have answered that one the day after surgery! Nope, I'll never look back and wish otherwise. This is the best thing for myself I've ever done. Seriously.

Oh! This was a first for me. My husband said, You're so skinny. (lol...sure, but i'll take it!) i sort of took that one for granted, knowing he knows that would make me smile. Now... I have a tall, skinny son and I stood up to go to the kitchen and slowly stretched into an upright position. And my son said, Mom! You're skinny! I just smiled at him and he said, have you SEEN your profile? Now THAT? That was a compliment coming from him! Whoo-hoo...it's the little things, isn't it? :D