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omigosh!
okay, I'm on my way to the shower, but I just had to write something! I haven't been doing my exersizes and I used to do Leslie Sansone's walk away the lbs including the 2 lb weight balls that no one can fill up entirely so they turn out being 1.5 lbs at best? there are 1 mile, 2 miles and 3 mile workouts and i can do the 3 mile walk and then be okay. or so I used to be able to. I haven't done it in quite a while and forgot how strenuous (sp?) it was at the beginning!
so monday with my TOPS I did the 1 mile and I came on tuesday and tried to do the 3 mile and had to quit after 1 mile of the 3. (which did nothing to help me feel good, or healthy because it's only like 15 minutes but you work in a good sweat!) but I was in so much pain and so tired because of it.
so tonight I decided, "let's startout small and do the 2 mile, and see if I can build up to doing the 3 mile again next week when my challenge starts" so I get to .5 of a mile and I'm dying inside. whether it was because I just wasn't used to the workout or because I just ate I'll never know but for whatever reason I hit a wall at .5 of a mile and decided instead of stopping like I did tuesday to push on. so on I went. at 1 mile I picked up a second wind. my mind started thinking of healthy food I'm going to make for my TOPS christmas party (decided on Sushi) and what I'm going to do when I get under 225 and how close I am to that goal and I forgot to be tired.
Then came the weights. I worked as hard as I could. when I was younger I used to be able to carry 4 lb weights and now I can barely do 1.5! *sigh* it just reminded me of how out of shape I was and it depressed me and I hit another wall. one of those "what's the point?" walls that I hit frequently? so I pushed that thought away and thought of these weights I saw at a local bookstore with another dvd. these are 'ergonamic' weights and are 2 lbs and I want them! so I pushed on with the thoughts, when I get down to 213 (my 10% goal) I'm going to buy those weights! and that distracted me again! when I came to myself the little scale on the screen was letting me know we had walked 2 miles and it was time for stretching! I was beyond excited! I am so full of adreniline (sp?) that I wish I had the strength and the time to do another 2 miles!
I can do this!
Ruthi
(Ps: I feel a little like the little engine that could "i think I can, I think I can, I think I can...)
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