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WooHOO! I weighed in this morning, as I keep track of myself every day, and I'm down 1.5 pounds! I'm so excited! I've broken the trend of the upward climb and I'm now headed downward! I actually feel like I'm making a difference within myself! =)
Friday night was date night. I didn't do too bad that night. Our plans were up in the air as we were both tired. We ended up going to a bowling alley, intending to eat, have a drink or two, and then play a game. I had 1 drink and I ordered myself a taco omelett. I decided to try to stick to high protein and no burgers. I have a weakness for burgers and fries...but I reminded myself that if I want to acheive my "ultimate me", I need to stop the pattern of making exceptions. So, burgers were not an option. I ate only half of my omelett. It came with hashbrowns, too. I ate half of those as well. I felt pretty good about my choice, although I wished I had ordered the taco salad but since we were someplace new, I didn't know what their food was like. We ended up going home after we ate and decided to go bowling next Saturday, during the day, when we aren't so tired.
I missed my workout on Friday, so I went yesterday. It felt GREAT! While walking on the treadmill, I listened to Dr. Phil, again. This time I learned that I am internally influenced and hold myself responsible for my actions, internally. I influence myself with self talk. And, my self talk needs to be changed from negative to positive. I don't blame anyone else for my being overweight except for myself. I know how I should eat, I know I need to exercise, I know that no one else can make my choices for me...hence, leading me to the conclusion that my core "problem" is my self control. I spend a lot of time making myself feel guilty for not having self control. Often times I scold myself and ask "why can't you just have SELF CONTROL?!" However, Dr. Phil is helping me change my perspective. I do have the control over what I say to myself and what I do. I just need to have the self confidence to respect myself and practice using my self control. I decided that from now on, I'm going to take things moment by moment and I'm going to ask myself if what I'm about to put in my mouth is going to help me accomplish my "ultimate me". I'm going to stay focused on the feeling that I'll have when I am my "ultimate me".
I feel pretty good about what I'm learning right now. I can acheive my goal! One day soon, I'll feel great about myself and I won't have to worry about how my daughter views me, health wise. I want to be an example to her. I want her to grow up being a healthy person, from the inside out.
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