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Oh my goodness I've been so mad at myself that I've seen no drop in the scale. I need a challenge, I really do. I need someone to compete with to get to a goal with me. I told myself that tomorrow would be the day I start, and then I'm sure that I'll get down on myself, yet again, and I'll be dumb. I'm STILL 180 lbs, maybe not tomorrow, after the way I ate today. I'm ready to be 150, well, at least by Christmas I want to be. I have the time, I have the energy but right now I'm lacking the will power. I need to find something to write "WILL POWER" all over my house, or something. What happened before that wont happen now? GRRR!! Its really stressful and irritating. I've been exhausted, so much, that I dont want to walk, clean, honestly, i dont even feel like waking up in the morning or making dinner for the family. I feel like a huge loser....huge, yeah, I feel huge too. UGH!! Well, I'm seriously going to try to start in the morning, I need to be head strong and DRINK MORE WATER. (i'm thinking I need to buy 1 more 5 gallon jug, that 1, 5 gallon jug, only lasts me 3 or 4 days.)
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