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My weight went up a little bit today, less than a pound. I love that Momo can go to a baseball game and eat delicious things all night and gain less than a pound, and I eat a grilled buffalo chicken sub from Subway, and gain, probably if not the same amount. Gah! I refuse to complain though, and I am simply recognizing that, and letting it go.
I'm starting to realize a lot of things along the way of this journey. I'm starting to look at people that I saw as "perfect," or "how I wanted to look," I always thought that being thin meant being happy and well liked. But as I look closer, I realize that being "skinny," does not equate with being "pretty." These girls who are thin do such terribly ugly things. This one girl, she lost of a bunch of weight, and then decided to cheat on her husband. I'm sorry, but losing weight does not give you license to become a, well, for lack of a more mature word, a slut. It's girls like that, that make our journey harder on us and on our significant others.
I like to bestow kindness on myself and others whenever I can, if they deserve it. I cannot get behind bad behavior, or support friends who are acting badly just because they "think they can." I have read some of your journals, and am very lucky to have a core group of friends that have supported and put up with me through my journey. It is those friends that are "on the fringe," that I am speaking of, and also those random people who you knew in high school that "friend" you on facebook, and then I am subjected to seeing all of their misadventures in my daily feed.
This world of FatSecret is a refuge from that. Real people who are trying and struggling everyday to do something that up until they found this site, didn't think they could do it. We are all beautiful, because we are working on ourselves, not only on the outside, but also on the inside. I am truly grateful and thankful to "know" all of you.
And that's that.
Diet Calendar Entry for 20 August 2010:
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10 kcal
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Fat: 0.00g | Prot: 0.00g | Carb: 2.00g.
Breakfast: Dunkin Donuts French Vanilla Coffee. Snacks/Other: Dunkin Donuts Unsweetened Iced Tea. more...
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