Lotus's Journal, 07 July 2008

mmm, delicious! you're obviously doing something right to eat like that and stay the same - great job!  

wooohoo! don't get too comfortable w/ those foods tho! ;) 

Actually, the point is to get comfortable with all foods, instead of living in fear of food and being tempted. As long as I eat when I am actually hungry, I can better sense when I have had enough and it's easier know when to stop. The trick is PAYING ATTENTION. 

oh i agree! i allow myself to eat pretty much everything too! but times i get too comfy and think i won't gain.. .then do! ugh! but i am glad to see you are back in track!  

You should be really proud you're making this transformation, your posts are totally inspirational. I was thinking you might like this website, it's run by to ladies who have both tried tons of dieting and got sick of it. One is quite slim and the other quite round, both are totally gorgeous and very witty: http://elasticwaist.com/ I don't always agree with them, but I always find them entertaining and fun. 

Sorry if I sounded rude cindyshine, I didn't mean to sound like such a know it all. I'm taking this one day at a time, and I am expecting setbacks and slipups along the way. I want to accept them, as I learn accept myself. It is going to take me a long time to shake the diet think completely. Fini, thanks for the website, I think I ran into it the other day when I was researching IE but I didn't stay there long, I'll go back and check it out. My biggest fear right now is losing support. There are not many people on here doing intuitive eating, and pretty much everyone has their opinions and lists of good foods/bad foods ready at every turn. I am too new to this to defend my new plan and I feel vulnerable. So forgive me if I seem defensive. I don't mean anything by it. The insecurity of learning to trust in my hunger instead of the current "leading expert" is making me a little on edge. I feel this approach is truly the best thing I could do right now, I just am craving a peer group I guess, especially of IE veterans that could share their stories and experiences.  

Hey!! I thought we were in this together, regardless of our different diets?? I will still support you!! 

I hope so! I want to still be included! 

Oh wow. I didn't read deffensiveness at all... really! I thought I used the wrong word too... comfy! We should all be so comfortable eating burger/pizza whatever- fearless and know when to feel satisfied! I actually practice ie myself, I just don't journal about it. I really do enjoy most foods but have learned what is enough (there are times I do so well). The thing I struggle the most w/ is when I am with ppl that just complimented my weightloss, then look at what I eat and give me the look, as if its not enough or sometimes whoa... you eat that and lose weight! Its like get the heck off my plate.. I know what and how much I put in my mouth! Idk what support you have at home, but HERE, I hope you are getting the support you need, I DO. I love you and want to see you succseed as well! now I wonder if you didn't like my last email a while back, did I upset you then?? lol you never wrote back!?  

Hello gorgeous!!! You have applause from me for quitting dieting. Its so easy for it to CONTROL your life. Food should be a small pleasure in life, among hundreds of different things, it shouldnt be the main focus of your life (unless you are a chef or nutritionist or food manufacture etc... actually loads of things, but you know what I mean right??)  

Aside from all that, you are a right skinny minny! Esp for your height! Hows the little kiddy and hubby? x 

Thanks ya'll for everything! I know what you mean cindy, I hat ebeing judged by how much/little I eat. I wish i never would have told ANYONE about my many diets. Everyone that knows me knows I am ALWAYS on a diet. The only person I telling about the fact that I am not "dieting" anymore is Brandon. I told him yesterday when he asked if I was going to bring my own fat free hot dogs to the cookout. I will probably tell my own family when I go on my vacation up to see them, but only if i am asked. I am sure mom will ask, since I am always freaking out about what I am going to eat and carrying around a diet book of some kind. I hope I will at least begin to get the hang of this intuitive eating by the time I go on my trip. I usually really struggle with dieting when I am on trips, either I eat everything or practically nothing. It will be a releif to not be on a diet for once, or OFF a diet either, and feeling guilty for every morsel of food. Cindy, I'm sorry, which email did I not respond to? It is possible I read it but was in a hurry and wasn't able to write back, and forgot? You haven't upset me in any way, I am just freaking out a little, and I was afraid I sounded a bit hostile/defensive when it was not my intention. I'll check and see which email you are talking about. Juno, hey girl I've been missing you! We are all doing good. kaelyn is a naughty boo, but she's lots of fun. Hubby's overworked as always but we are all having a good summer. How about you? 

How excited was I to check in on a few of my buddies and find you have switched to IE! I also gave up dieting awhile back and follow what sounds to be the same approach as you. I eat when I am hungry (what my body is craving) and I stop when I am satisfied (not full). The key for me is then turning AWAY from food when I am not hungry and telling myself I can have it later when I get hungry -IF I still want it. I have also stopped stepping on the scale daily and counting calories!!!! It feels so amazing to stop obsessing and constantly worrying over all of it! It is also nice to eat with my family again and not have to make a different meal for myself! It is wonderful to enjoy all those foods I had given up for almost a year. I have lost weight using this approach before, but this time I am not even focusing on losing any more weight. I am focusing on accepting myself where I am it and if I lose anything I will consider it an added bonus. I hope it goes well for you. I do not get on this site very often (it is part of my effort to stop obsessing) but the next time I do I will check in to see how you are doing. Blessings...