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I want to go and weigh myself, because I'm feel pretty good today...but someone else was in the bathroom (we have a fancy scale in our work bathroom because for a while some employees were all on diets at the same time and competing--you paid $100 to enter and the person who lost the highest percentage won).
Anyway, I was clearing out all my too big clothes, and all my clothes that I don't really like and only wore to avoid shopping this weekend.
I realized something. As I gained weight I thought I looked successively worse and hated to shop at each stage. As I lose the weight I look so much better than I did a few pounds ago that I'm liking to shop again--even though I'm still heavier than I was when I started gaining (I look back at the pictures of me getting married and realize how fat I thought I was, and I'm still 3-4 sizes and 40 pounds heavier right now!). I pulled out stuff and thought, "Why did I bother packing this away??? I didn't like it then, and I won't wear it now!
I only wear clothes I like and feel good in now!
I would like to say here that I think I finally conquered the demon of all my past dieting...the beat myself up factor. In the past, if I cheated and ate something "sinful" I just threw in the towel and went crazy for the rest of the day and told myself I'd start over again tomorrow (or the next week). Now, if I eat it, I write it down, even it means at the end of the week I have a negative in my weekly points. I ate a piece of cake this weekend (I split it with my two year old), and that was it. I didn't go crazy. I try never to say I can't have something (unless I really don't want it, and then I can use the diet as an excuse). I am hoping this means I can do this forever.
I AM VINDICATED, by the way. My skinny husband has "slightly" elevated cholesterol! He said it was only 7 points above normal, but I pointed out that his fat wife (who you would expect to have high cholesterol) doesn't have elevated cholesterol...because I eat healthier and always have!! I just eat too much, and indulge too much.
On a side note, I have started walking our office parking lot (hopefully) four times a day. That makes an extra mile a day (it's about 1/4 mile around). I do it when I get to work, right before I leave, once mid-morning to "earn" a mid-morning snack (a bowl of 0-1 point soup), and once before lunch to earn my "lunch". Other trips with co-workers are bonuses!
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