Goodmorning, buddies!
First of all, thank you for all your encouraging comments yesterday - as always, I truly appreciate all the interaction I see here. You guys are the best.
Today, I didn't weigh in. I did this fully on purpose. More about that in a bit.
Yesterday was such a weird day. So many things happened, mostly good, but also one truly devastating thing, which ruined it all.
I lost a great coworker to cancer yesterday. :( He was a good friend, and excellent coworker, and also the guy who got me going on exercise about a year or so ago. He was a fitness coach too, and was the guy I probably mentioned would help me get going on all the machines at my old gym. Sadly, my friend Kenny is no more.
This, really tore me apart yesterday. I didn't give a rat's a** about diet or anything else, and ate what I wanted. Talk about stress factors! So, knowing perfectly well that I would just hate myself excessively seeing a number today (and probably tomorrow too), I decided to spare myself the agony and simply not weigh in.
I have - of course - decided that one day of "mourning snacks" is more than enough. No more. But it's hard to cope with this. Even writing this journal really tears at me, but on the other hand it's good to get it out in writing. That is, after all, what this journal is all about. Get your thoughts straight, Keld. Work out the kinks, and do good. When you have issues, talk about them. When you have success, bask in it. When you are sad, let people know. It works.
And actually, as if by magic, this actually helped. A thought came to me - Kenny wouldn't have wanted me to eat because of him being gone. Actually, he'd be hitting me over the head and be giving me a dumbass grin saying "You f**kin' moron, what are you doing?". So, in memory of Kenny, I'm gonna do this right. Hell yeah.
Yesterday was not just all sadness though.
I had a great phone call from madlog.dk - the Danish equivalent to FatSecret. I use madlog (which means "food journal" in Danish, and has nothing to do with angry or crazy trees) when I teach weight loss, and I use it to track my own calories too. They are more than interested in doing some partner work with me. I get to sell their subscribtions to my clients at a discount, and I get some awesome tracking tools and ways to further interact with them through the site. Nice!
They were really curious about Fatsecret, as they had never heard of it. They were curious about what made this place better and worse, and how they could improve. In particular, I mentioned the journals, the buddies and the forum. This place is amazing! Of course, it's HUGE. Denmark is only 6 million people, and it will never be possible to build a forum the size of what we see here.
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Also, my insurance company is picking up my laptop for repair today. It has been causing so many problems and it has so many things not fully working. Finally, it died on me. I'm so glad I bought insurance on it, so I get a full repair. Now, let's all cross our fingers that they can not repair it and that they'll give me a new laptop instead. :)
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I feel so sluggish today, physically. I was mentally not really up for going to the gym this morning, and agreed with Wife that she'd kick me to go to the gym when I come home from work tonight. Fortunately, I manned up and went. Gym is done, and I feel a million times better now that I did it. Kenny was rooting on me the whole time. lol. I can't let him down now, right?
Today, I'm thankful for: - NOT weighing in. - Feeling much better after going to the gym. I'm glad I went already. Positive outlooks! - A quiet day at work, with tasks different from what I am usually doing.
Happy Wednesday, folks! Life is good.
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