I am recording a gain. Of course, I would prefer to record a loss. I am not too concerned as I know that I will keep trending down however it is a reminder that if I stray too far from my planned eating that I will not do as well on the weight loss front.
The most notable activity this last week was driving 2.5 hours to The Land (as the organizing people in the North Country Fair refer to the location of the Fair) to assist my friend with food prepping for the Festival in two weeks. It meant working one afternoon and then sleeping over in my camper and working the next morning and afternoon before heading home. I made 30 pans of lasagna that are now frozen and ready. Other than that I was the garlic peeler, onion chopper and dish washer.
I was asked a little while ago by one of the music coordinators for the Fair if they could do a workshop entitled "Dave's Not Here" in honour of my husband, Dave. My husband often referenced the Cheech and Chong skit by saying "Dave's not here" when people came looking for him. I told them he would be pleased. I was expecting a workshop on one of the three smaller stages during one of the afternoons. I found out a couple of days ago from my son (who is responsible for the layout and printing of the program for the Fair) that it was on Friday at the Main Stage at 5:30 (the first Act). Then my son told me who was playing -- all long time musical friends of my husband's. I burst into happy tears. When I shared the information with my daughter and my sister they too burst into happy tears.
Our Fair Family lost two long time members - my husband and our good friend Jim plus another man who was fast becoming a fixture in the community in the first 4 months of this year. The group is reeling from our loss. My husband and Jim in particular were ubiquitous at the Fair. Everywhere you looked you saw one or both of them. Many people have expressed how difficult this Fair will be with their absences. I have some trepidation attending this year just because it will be hard to deal with my grief, my children's grief, all of our friends' grief and the grief of well meaning people who don't know what to say or do and finally the people who will be hearing for the first time. I know our entire family is preparing themselves mentally.
On a happier note, there has been no visible smoke at my house for nearly a week. Occasionally the smell is in the air. We are no longer on critical alert. People to the north of me have been allowed back to their homes. Right now the people who have gone back to their homes continue to be on official alert that they may need to vacate on short notice if the fire situation changes.
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221.8 lb
Lost so far: 46.7 lb.
Still to go: 51.8 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 08 June 2019:
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1356 kcal
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Fat: 29.30g | Prot: 65.05g | Carb: 217.35g.
Breakfast: Kombucha, Tea (Brewed), Honey, Whole Milk, Yam, Poached Egg. Lunch: Raw Vegetable, Beef Barley Soup. Dinner: Birds Eye Roasted Red Potatoes in Garlic & Oil, Italpasta Spaghettini, Market Pantry Traditional Meat Pasta Sauce. Snacks/Other: 365 Greek Yogurt Plain. more...
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2819 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Dance (slow step) - 20 minutes, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 45 minutes, Stretching (yoga) - 30 minutes, Sleeping - 9 hours, Weight Training (moderate) - 13 minutes, Resting - 13 hours and 12 minutes. more...
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gaining 1.0 lb a week
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I’m sure the fair will prove to be therapeutic for you and your family. Enjoy it as much as you can.
08 Jun 19 by member: FrankieBluEyes
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Glad you realize a pound “up” in inconsequential in your general trend down. You are doing a good job. I can understand you and your friends and family are concerned the Fair will be a hard time, seeing all the others, plus hearing the comments and missing Dave so much. Music is always emotional, plus he was such a big part of it. It's one more of those extra hurtful times, like holidays, or other meaningful times with raw memories. Grief comes in waves, doesn't it? When some people see that you are grieving (in the future) they might think you are “still” grieving to that same extent, not knowing about the waves. Because of our great love, a wave of grief can come when something reminds us of them and the loss feels overwhelming. Yes, it will lessen, it “will” get better, but will still be there to some extent the rest of your life. You have lost part of yourself, and your love and grief is a testament of your devotion. In the midst of the Fair, the care and love you will get from others is gratifying. Oh, the bitter sweet. I will pray for you and the others affected during that time. Love to you, Snowy.
08 Jun 19 by member: Snowwhite100
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Kudos to you, going through with an event that you know will be so difficult. I hope you get a lot of support through it.
08 Jun 19 by member: LZenn
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My goodness. So sorry for your losses.
08 Jun 19 by member: Debbie Cousins
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Thank you for all of your kind words. I appreciate, Snowy, your obvious wisdom likely coming from your own experiences. You are correct, no one sustains constant grief. It does come-- sometimes unexpectedly and sometimes predictably. Frankie, I do expect it will be therapeutic in the long run. We have a close community of friends there. Ahead of time, it is easy to flinch. When we see our friends and their sincerity it will make it better. Thank you for your encouragement, LZenn. Thank you, Debbie, for you concern.
08 Jun 19 by member: 59Carol
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So sorry for your losses. What a beautiful gesture from the fair to honor your late husband.
09 Jun 19 by member: shirfleur 1
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