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Well lookie there- it's my long-lost friend, FatSecret! I can't believe you abandoned me for MONTHS ON END... yeah yeah okay, I'm the one who did the abandoning. Totally skipped out on ya.
But I'm back, and begging for forgiveness!
Darling FatSecret, you were good to me for so long. Always encouraging me on my health journey, ready with a sweet smile and a pat on the back or a string of harsh profanities that would make any boot camp instructor blush. You were what I needed, when I needed it. And I abandoned you.
But I AM BACK.
Let's be real for a sec. Last January I was alllll about my health journey. I was the one who showed up to workout classes early with a huge smile and neon sweatbands on. Not really... but close. I was excited. I was proud. I was ready. A year later, things have changed. I'm lazy. Lethargic. Totally lacking motivation. Perfectly content to get home from work and park my butt on the couch for hours at a time. I'm 5 pounds heavier than I was last summer.
And I'm unhappy.
Not with my weight, or my looks, but with my attitude. I do not like this lazy girl who has let go of her ambition and goals. So I've decided to force myself to get up and go, even though I really have no desire to do so. I'm hoping that getting back to the gym will, in turn, make me WANT to go to the gym. I need something to snap me out of this funk... but I have no idea how to get myself motivated.
For now, I'll just say this: I am going to the gym tonight.
And that's a phrase I haven't said in months.
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