kickingcarbs's Journal, 13 February 2019

Today I did something I have literally never done before. I went through a drive through and got coffee and donuts for my husband and his fellow mechanics on my way to work. I didn't order me anything I just drank my meal shake. I didn't steal a donuts or a little bit of icing. I didn't even open the box before I surprised my husband with them. I have such a sugar addiction these are all things I have done in the past. And the thing is.....I didn't even have to remind myself or talk myself out of eating one. Even when I was offered. I don't know if some of you realize how hard something like that is for someone like me. I mean once I got past 400 lbs honestly anything edible was mine basically. My sugar addiction truly was a sickness. I even turned down cookies already. I know I can have one if I want but I rather enjoy chocolate tomorrow or ice cream this weekend. It sounds dumb but I am so proud of myself because I literally went through a drive through and didn't order anything or steal a bite! Why because stealing sugar and not telling anyone I cheated on my healthier life style truly only prolongs my progress it doesn't hurt anyone but me. And I refuse to keep disappointing myself any longer.

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646 kcal

Fat: 9.94g | Prot: 41.88g | Carb: 86.21g.   Breakfast: Muscle Milk 100% Whey Protein - Chocolate, Thrive Premium Lifestyle Mix, Blue Diamond Almond Breeze Unsweetened Vanilla Milk. Lunch: Healthy Choice Cafe Steamers Asian Inspired Chicken Pad Thai. Snacks/Other: Rockstar Inc Energy Drink (Can). more...