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Good morning.
The sun is shining and it is supposed to be in the 70's today. Very nice!!
Yesterday's plan to be 'back on track' jumped the track with an unexpected potluck for a coworker who is leaving us (not her choice) and the most unbelievable cake I have eaten in quite some time!! Oh well. It happens. Today is a new day and I will just keep plodding along. I know I'll get these few pounds back off and maybe, maybe a tad lower. We'll see. I'm beginning to think the ONLY way I'll ever be below the blue line is to make the blue line higher!! LOL!!
I think I have just one appointment today which is good since I am very behind on paperwork and phone calls. Being gone 2 unexpected days this week has really thrown me off kilter. I don't know how FIL did yesterday. Hubby didn't call his uncle and uncle didn't call us. I'll check in with the nurses and see how yesterday went. I will probably visit tomorrow since it is furlough Friday and I am not working.
Hubby is struggling to find a way to cope with these major changes with his dad. I am struggling NOT to think about my hubby's cancer and losing him. I am still very tired. Hot flashes are not cooperating with getting a decent night's sleep, unfortunately. Hopefully I'll be able to do a little catching up on sleep this weekend. Depends on how much we are going to the hospital I imagine. We haven't even talked about it yet. Not much energy to have discussions right now.
Overall though, I am doing okay. It is amazing how one can just keep plodding along ... dealing with this and that as it comes our way ... sometimes I wonder if suddenly I'll crash. My dilemma now is whether or not to go out of town on Sunday to a training I am scheduled for. I hate to be out of town with FIL the way he is ... mostly for hubby. Hubby says ... "GO" ... but I'm conflicted. I know how much it helps him when I am home and there for him in difficult times. I don't know what to do. Hopefully I'll figure it out soon. Advice? Input?
Well, I must get on with my day. The coffee is surely brewed by now and I suppose I should eat something for breakfast. I had a fiber bar earlier because I felt nauseous after my exercise this morning, but I skipped my normal egg sandwich breakfast. Probably not smart. But I have yogurt and a protein bar handy so I can take care of that.
Have a wonderful day.
Diet Calendar Entries for 13 May 2010:
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1361 kcal
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Fat: 30.92g | Prot: 81.01g | Carb: 207.92g.
Breakfast: Special K Protein Bar, Fiber One, water. Lunch: Diced Peaches Sweetened with Splenda, Jarlsberg Lite, Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins, white turkey meat. Dinner: Lean Cuisine Chicken Parmesan. Snacks/Other: cool whip, strawberries, popcorn, Snickers Marathon Dark Chocolate Crunch, Brown Cow All Natural Greek Yogurt. more...
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3096 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Desk Work - 9 hours, Driving - 2 hours, Precor Elliptical - 45 minutes, Resting - 4 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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I just wrote this long comment and then poof it was gone. Basically what I said is you know how you feel and what you will comfortable doing. I'm sure you will make the right decision. Work has been very busy here this week as well. I am behind myself and hoping to get caught up today. I hope FIL is doing well today and I hope you relax and eat some food. With all the running you do you need to keep up your energy. Huggs Moose!
13 May 10 by member: chattycathy1955
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I will kee you and yours in my prayers and yes follow Cathy's advice in taking care of YOU! {{{HUGS&KISSES}}}♥!
13 May 10 by member: inola
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You should do whatever will let you sleep better at night. If you will feel angst missing the training, go to that. If you will worry about your husband the whole time you're training, stay home. You are doing a great great job staying with this situation and not going under the waves. Happy Friday (for you!). :)
13 May 10 by member: erikag
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Personally, I think you should go out of town. There is a limit to what you can do, and consider the law of diminishing returns. There are some indications of a recovery, and you have been there as much as you could, it's enough for now. Time to take care of yourself. Don't think about losing anybody, think about what you have. It's the only way to keep yourself sane and really healthy. See my quote for today. Further instructions will be forthcoming. ;-)
13 May 10 by member: information
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I wait with bated breath for further instructions!!! LOL!!
13 May 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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On one hand, I say go out of town because you do need the break. On the other hand, I say stay home because its not easy for Bob right now..... I'm as conflicted as you are on this! Its not fair all that you are going through right now - I don't even have any words of wisdome for you. Just stay strong, and you will get through this. HUGS!
13 May 10 by member: MomofTwoGirls
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oh good grief ... there is another potluck happening as I type!!! This time it is a BBQ outdoors for someone else who is leaving us (by his own wishes though)!!! I am not even going to go outside. If I stay away I cannot be tempted ... right?
13 May 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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As our situations seem to run parallel, I hope you have had as good a day as me. I'll echo Infos thoughts that you should go out of town on your training. Things with your FIL seem to indicate at least a respite and you have given a lot of yourself, albeit to support your hubby, so a little time for you is needed. Live in the moment, I've found its the only way to stay sane. Good luck with staying away from the potluck - I'm putting cream and butter in everything to keep Ray's calorie intake up and I just have to taste it don't I? ((hugs))
13 May 10 by member: flaxseed
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For sanity's sake, I say go for the training seminar...I *worked* to prepare myself for my Mom's possible end of life and was *present* on a weekly basis...even tho it's a 4 1/2 hour trip each way...darlin', we NEED to give ourselves a break from the stresses of family illness...Whatever you do darlin'...whatever decision you come to...It WILL be the best for you...You and your family continue to be in my prayers...every day...hugggs
13 May 10 by member: drd3775
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I think I'm going to go unless something really shakes up in the next two days. I have tomorrow off from work and was planning on going to visit FIL as hubby has to work. He says, "NO" "take the day for yourself" "you've done enough". So I am imagining he will say the same for this short trip out of town. I'll double check with him first but unless he has changed his mind I think I know what he will say. FIL is the same. No change really at all. The only progress is that they are sitting him in a chair. He is confused, mumbling, and basically non-communicative, even when his brother visited today. Glen, you said it well ... by going I am supporting hubby by taking care of myself. I think that is what he wants. Flax, today was an okay day. I feel a little more like myself and less frazzled. Thanks for the input buddies ... as always ... much appreciated!!!
13 May 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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13 May 10 by member: chattycathy1955
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I am all for unfrazzling. Best wishes on taking care of yourself! I dodged the furlough bullets here myself and I know that is a stress in itself to be off work like that - not a vacation by any means!
13 May 10 by member: abbadabba
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Thank goodness you already made your decision! I was fretting over what advice to give. I think you made the right one, btw. I like how glen put it - you had two "right" answers to choose from. OK - am I the ONLY one who wants to know more about the "unbelievable cake"?? Glad you enjoyed it. :) ((((((HUGS))))))
14 May 10 by member: amryk
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Hi Moose! Glen's comment is so true, about the two right answers. I hope today will bring good news from your FIL. Have a great friday off, and whatever you decide for this weekend, you know you're making the right decision. ((((hugs)))
14 May 10 by member: jessyline
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