ny_shelly's Journal, 07 June 2018

Well, as you can see I have been off on a binge eating extravaganza. I don't do well when I get out of my routine. It's a real problem that will keep me from being successful if I don't figure out how to stay on plan even when I am out of my element.

Graduation for my daughter went very nicely. I hung in there for a couple of days and then the stress of the whole thing finally got me and I gave in. After I gave in, it was off to the races and I didn't stop.

I didn't do anything I was supposed to do for the whole 2 weeks. Imagine how much food I ate to gain 15 pounds in 2 weeks?

I watched My 600 Pound Life last night and watched that woman lose over 400 pounds. She was a real inspiration and I really like that DR b/c he doesn't pull any punches. It helped me think about my situation.

I am really sick of losing and gaining but what are the choices here? To quit? To give up and just drop dead? I even considered giving up my trainer b/c why should I spend all that money if I am just going to keep up this BS?

Today I weighed myself and for the next month I don't go out of town. I hope to lose the weight I gained and when I go down to my Dad's for 4th of July I need to talk to him about what I need to do. It wasn't anyone's fault by mine but maybe if I have a talk with him about what I need to do to stay on track I will do better.

I'm sorry I wasn't here supporting people when I abandoned my program. I hope everyone is doing well.

301.6 lb Lost so far: 50.4 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.