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I am back.. been going threw ups and down.. I moved away then to find out the kids kept fighting with my friends kids.. so I moved back to Texas. Been back for 3 weeks now. As soon as I came back my car broke down.. got that fixed somewhat. Good thing is, I have stayed the same weight!! I went into the gym the other day to weigh myself. 136lbs. :) yay.. i mean it could be worse I could be gaining... so I am proud that I didn't gain.
I had also put myself on this dating site.. I got a lot of crazy emails.. then some god ones. I did reply to one.. He's my age, very fit and he's all about working out. He's also a very handsome puerto rican man. :) So we talked for about the same time ive been back in Texas. He wanted to meet me but, I was worried that my weight would scare him away. So guess what??!! We had our second date. He thinks im sexy beautiful. :) I am a little afraid because I feel insecure every time I get into a relationship, i always feel this way. I dont know why I feel this way. I really feel like I have something wrong with myself for thinking this way. I wish i was able to just relax and go with the flow. Im happy right now but, i worry that something will happen. I guess what I am saying is that I am the type of person that expects something bad to happen.. :(
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