Ive been thinking a lot about things latley. It seems that whenever I get a good weight on the scale, i loose the ability to say no to pizza, chocolate and all those other things.
I cant remember honestly the last time i saw 213 on the scale. When we went to N. Carolina I know I was weighing somewhere around 220. I was in size 18 pants and XL clothes. When we came back I got my new scrubs for when we switched over to Navy at our hospital and I was just squeezing into a Large top and XL pants.
Now the pants fall off and the top is fitting loosley. So I can see and feel the difference in my weight loss so far, but I feel as if I am being impatient.
I keep trying to remind myself that I didnt put it all on in a week so i cant take it off in one either. But I WANT TO!
A few years ago I stopped smoking and was about 188-190 and gained up to 220 which is where I stayed for a year. I know the smoke free lifestyle was worth the weight gain but its just hard to accept. 30 lb gain! ugh.
My goals are quite big. I need to be around 150 -160 lbs to be at a healthy BMI. I am a nurse and I cannot keep telling people to not eat certain things if my own fat rolls are peeking out from my scrub tops. So from where I started at 226 thats around a 75lbs I need to drop. And if I did loose 2lbs a week it would take me 37.5 weeks to take it off or about nine months. Its a long time.
I have for the most part made great decisions when eating out, grocery shopping and snacking. What gets me is candy and chocolate. I guess I just need to keep it out of the house so I cant eat freely. I know for sure I have wanted chocolate and had none in the house. I didnt go to the store for it either. So as long as I can get over the intial NO! I will be ok.
My goals for now... are as follows.
1. By June 1st 2010 I want to be 199lbs or less.
2. By April 21st Halfway to be around 207 lbs or less.
3. Try to exercise at least twice or more a week.
I hope this works out!
Diet Calendar Entries for 24 March 2010:
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1298 kcal
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Fat: 39.66g | Prot: 44.15g | Carb: 203.49g.
Breakfast: silk soy vanilla, Bagel Thins Plain, philadelphia cream cheese garden. Lunch: avacado, sour cream, Potato and Cheddar Pierogies. Dinner: hostess 100 calorie chocolate, lean cusine lemon. Snacks/Other: rice, 100 calorie almond. more...
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2600 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Calisthenics (heavy, e.g. pushups) - 20 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 40 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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