I found out my scale went haywire and was weighing in light. Bought a new scale, don't know which one to trust. I'm going to go to my local Olympic lifting training center this weekend (my period should be away and hopefully bloat gone) to see what I weigh. Because I'm so close, I want to lift as a 75kg lifter instead of 75+. I'm definitely comparing myself to others, I've had binges, I don't know if I'm eating enough, I feel like I need nutritional coaching but I don't have the money for it right now. But the scale is messing my head up all sorts of ways. Other teachers in my building today said I looked like I lost more weight and all I could say was, my scale said I gained two pounds...I want a healthier relationship with food. It's definitely tough. And on days I don't workout/play rugby I get guilty that I'm not out doing a bunch of working out. You can be that makes my girlfriend look at me like I have 10 heads. I also think I'm allowing myself treats too much even if they don't make a huge dent in my food intake.
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