Hi everyone. My last entry was in June, 2013. I guess I can say that I pretty much quit. I was in a good place, and then I wasn't anymore, and my lifestyle went back to what made me fat in the first place. I went to the doctor yesterday, and I had to step on the scale. I couldn't even look away. He sits at his desk and I have to tell him the number. 240. (he said subtract 10, but I'm subtracting 5 bc my clothes were not heavy) Wow! My last weigh in here was in May 2013, 215, so close to 200, my first big milestone. Now look what I've done.
Today will be day one of getting real and starting over. Just so happens that Aunt Flow decided to pay me a visit this morning, and I have cramps from hell. Chris (the sig other), has this... Just do it attitude "If you really want it, you'll do it" "Other women have the same responsibilities and they do it" "You just have to say Fuck it and make it happen". So, everything that comes out of my mouth sounds like a pathetic excuse. He is currently sitting here in his workout clothes and gym shoes pretending he's not waiting for me to get off my fat ass and get ready for the gym. I will. I will go to the gym this morning, cramps, bad attitude and all.
I will write more about what's going on at another time, but let's just say that my main challenge is trying to fit everything into my day. I feel like nothing gets done unless I do it. That's probably not true, but it's how I feel. I usually try to get an early start, like grocery shopping at 7am, something in the crockpot or at least thaw out some meat by 9am, all my errands, phone calls, cleaning, laundry, appointments for me and my daughter (we have plenty). And I'm on meds that don't always leave me feeling well. So, yes I have excuses. I have to find strength that I don't even know exists and make it happen.
Here we go again. I have been trying to get to a healthy weight since I had my daughter who just turned 17. I will be 40 in March. I DO NOT want to be fat at 40. I don't even know if I still have buddies on this site. I certainly hope so, because I need support.
Thanks
Diet Calendar Entries for 23 September 2014:
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1860 kcal
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Fat: 66.88g | Prot: 77.03g | Carb: 169.86g.
Breakfast: Peanut Butter, Plain Waffle, Hard-Boiled Egg, Kellogg's Nutri-Grain Cereal Bar - Apple Cinnamon, Coffee with Cream and Sugar. Lunch: Great Value Light Raspberry Vinaigrette Dressing, Skinless Chicken Breast, Nature's Promise Organic Grape Tomatoes, Fresh Selections Shredded Carrots, Mixed Salad Greens. Dinner: Scallions or Spring Onions, Breakstone's Reduced Fat Sour Cream, Southern Home Shredded Mild Cheddar Natural Cheese, Chili. Snacks/Other: Redd's Apple Ale, Crystal Light Peach Sugar Free Iced Tea Mix, Buttered Popcorn Popped in Oil. more...
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3548 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 2 hours, Housework - 2 hours, Exercise machine (moderate) - 30 minutes, Resting - 11 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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I am only a week in on my journey. You have taken the first big step! you can do this! Be healthy for YOU! Great job on deciding to come back! :)
23 Sep 14 by member: Momofthree22
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Welcome back!Support is what we are all about here. Will send you a friend request.
23 Sep 14 by member: MaineDonna
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I am in the same boat!! Lifestyle changes are very tough, but your fight is everyone's fight. You can do this!! I started my RE-commitment earlier this month, first with food intake and yesterday began my fitness. My tools: My supplements, My app- My Fitness Pal, and my goal sheet. I also had to learn to take care of me first and then I am good to take care of everyone else with more confidence because I feel good about me! Take care- and have a blessed day!
23 Sep 14 by member: WrapLifeatHome
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90 % of fat loss will come from your diet. The gym will improve your overall health but most importantly it will help keep your eating on track. On June 9th I weighed 153.2 kg! I know the exact number because I went in for double jaw surgery. Since then I have dropped consistently and my last weigh in was just over 140 kg. The real numbers I watch are my BF % and even though my weight is up my BF% is down, *January 42%, July 34.8%, August 29.9%, September 25.6%. It is hard work to stick to a diet that is so different than what I was accustomed to and I do have days where I eat some of the 'bad' foods but only once every week or two. My beginning strategy was to just log everything I ate without trying to make major changes. This gave me a good starting point to understand what I was eating and when. Then slowly I made changes. Nothing major happened at first but as better habits developed the BF% started to go down. I can easily say I love sweets, crisps, cakes and ice cream. So one at a time I started to reduce then eliminate the offenders from my plate. After a while they weren't so comforting, music became my comfort food. I can toss on a record and two or three songs into it I get the boost I used to get from food. The other thing I noticed was that once I had eliminated all of the junk food from my diet I am now having a hard time eating enough food to get my calories in! Couple that with seeing progress at the gym and all of the motivation I need is there. Try not to think of making all of your changes at the same time ease into it, accept that once in a while you will eat ice cream and be kind to your self.
23 Sep 14 by member: jwsplatjw
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90 % of fat loss will come from your diet. The gym will improve your overall health but most importantly it will help keep your eating on track. On June 9th I weighed 153.2 kg! I know the exact number because I went in for double jaw surgery. Since then I have dropped consistently and my last weigh in was just over 140 kg. The real numbers I watch are my BF % and even though my weight is up my BF% is down, *January 42%, July 34.8%, August 29.9%, September 25.6%. It is hard work to stick to a diet that is so different than what I was accustomed to and I do have days where I eat some of the 'bad' foods but only once every week or two. My beginning strategy was to just log everything I ate without trying to make major changes. This gave me a good starting point to understand what I was eating and when. Then slowly I made changes. Nothing major happened at first but as better habits developed the BF% started to go down. I can easily say I love sweets, crisps, cakes and ice cream. So one at a time I started to reduce then eliminate the offenders from my plate. After a while they weren't so comforting, music became my comfort food. I can toss on a record and two or three songs into it I get the boost I used to get from food. The other thing I noticed was that once I had eliminated all of the junk food from my diet I am now having a hard time eating enough food to get my calories in! Couple that with seeing progress at the gym and all of the motivation I need is there. Try not to think of making all of your changes at the same time ease into it, accept that once in a while you will eat ice cream and be kind to your self.
23 Sep 14 by member: jwsplatjw
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You can do this. Excuses or no, life is hard sometimes and finding the drive to lose weight can be REALLY hard. One thing you have going for you is that you don't seem to have anything that is physically holding you back. That means exercise is still an option. That is one thing I don't have. I just turned 34 and I am about to have my second back surgery; diet is my only option at the moment. Even though I want a cheeseburger everyday I am not going to do it. It may be hard to keep my diet on track but I need to do it. If I can do this then you can do anything you want to do. Just try to make it a higher priority and try to make healthy habits.
23 Sep 14 by member: saswank80
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I just returned from the gym and was surprised by all of these uplifting messages! Thank you so much for the support. It helps sooo much! It's almost 11am, and all I've had so far is coffee. I'm not good when it comes to eating breakfast. That's one thing I have to work on. To the person who wrote the last comment... Wow! your second back surgery? I'm amazed that you are even in the game. What an inspiration. If you wanted to give up, you would have a perfect excuse, but you're in the fight. If you can do it, I can do it too. The only limitations I have are mental. (crazy mood swings, days when I just don't care), and side effects from meds. These are things I can definitely push past. Thanks again everyone. If you're not a buddy of mine, please send a request. I'd like to be supportive to you as well.
23 Sep 14 by member: LisaPhenon
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