Well, I'm sorry the appointment didn't go too well - with all the news. BUT, it's one thing to hit you smack-dab in the middle of the face with the true need for the loss. I agree with your other journal entry for the 8th....you have to just concentrate on one pound at a time. I, too, have fallen victim to the overwhelming realization that I have over 100 pounds to lose - 'how in the hell am I going to do that?!?' But all and all, those 100, just melt into 10 pounds, 10 times......or 1 pound at a time. Good luck - now you have more reasons to do it!!!