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This morning I'm really annoyed! Not at myself but at my little sister. She acts as if & says I just don't understand & that she's the crazy one when it comes to weight! Well isn't that some BS since I'm the one who's ALWAYS been the heaviest in my family. I've struggled my whole life. She only really started to have a problem after she had her son & then she became bulimic (she was also a cutter but that started when she was in junior high).
She doesn't monitor her cals, she eyeballs it & only in the last week did I get her to pay attention to calories & serving sizes. She swears up & down that she's only eating 1200 cals which is major BS, esp when you AREN'T going by serving sizes, just being aware of them. She's mad b/c for the last 3 weeks tops she's been working out everyday at the gym, at least 50-80 mins of cardio along w/ weights everyday (yeah, she doesn't want to listen to me that you're supposed to do weights every other day to give your muscles recovery time, it's not like I've taken weight lifting classes before). She lost 9lbs like nothing (not even I can get my body to do that) & she's freaking out right now b/c she went up 2lbs this morning. I gave her a host of reasons why that could be but again, what do I know.
Right now, I'm just so sick & tired of people treating me like someone who has no idea about anything. It happens in all areas of my life. She's say that it's a good thing that she feels the urge to want to be bulimic again b/c it makes her realize she has to do it the right way more than ever. Well I hope that can stay true b/c at week 3 if she's feeling this, I can't imagine her continuing if things don't move fast enough for her in the next couple of weeks.
Sorry, I had to vent. I'm getting ready to go do my 6 miles at the park & it's not something I look forward to at all, any day. Anyway, I'm sure it'll at least help me get out the pent up frustration my sister is causing me. I'm not asking her to say that I'm right, I just wish she'd not wait till forever & a day like always to realize that her way doesn't work (she really really really hates when I'm right & will do everything in her power to make sure not to prove me right).
Ok, up another .4lbs making it a total of 3.6lbs up since my last weigh-in on Thurs. If my abs weren't actually sore now & my calves being continually sore, hell, all of me being continually sore then I'd be off the wall but I'm not. Just need to be patient w/ myself.
Diet Calendar Entries for 02 June 2010:
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1312 kcal
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Fat: 56.95g | Prot: 109.94g | Carb: 91.51g.
Breakfast: Red Bull. Lunch: Sweet & Spicy Mustard, Tuna. Dinner: Greek Style Feta Dressing, Grated Parmesan Cheese, Rosarita Refried Beans, Stringsters Low Moisture Part Skim Mozzarella Cheese, boneless skinless chicken breast. Snacks/Other: Sun Dried Tomato, Homestyle Ranch, Spicy Brown Mustard, Egg White, Tuna, Grated Parmesan Cheese, 70% Dark Chocolate Bars, Grande Soy Java Chip Light Frappuccino, Almonds raw. more...
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3602 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Squats - 3 minutes, Sit Ups (35) - 10 minutes, Push Ups (35) - 10 minutes, Walking ~3.3mph - 1 hour and 48 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 49 minutes, Sleeping - 6 hours. more...
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