WisteriaSky233's Journal, 22 March 2024

Take time to grieve but he has a point. You have to take charge of your life eventually no matter what it is that you choose to do. I know you said fear of the unknown scares you but it’s not healthy to live in this limbo state. Eventually you have to 💩or get off the pot, it’s super hard and you can take the time you need but you have to think about yourself first and foremost. What do you need to make a decision? Maybe start journaling to get everything you need out and on paper so you aren’t accumulating anxious or sad feelings. Just my opinion. I have gone through depression/loss/indecision and I know it takes time. I know you have friends that support you along the way too. I hope you can take some time for yourself to relax and recharge this weekend and see if you can get some clarity either way. 🙏🏻 

Hi Wisteria. It really sounds like you have far too much manipulation around you. Maybe getting push pulled left and right. It’s extremely challenging to make the right life decisions with that stress. Maybe raise your hand and call a time out? From your husband, from your friend, from anything clouding your thinking. Make it a predetermined about of time. Say 30 days? No contact. No pressure. Just live for a bit. Your heart will tell you what the right thing to do is. Maybe? When what you guys are doing clearly isn’t working so what do you have to lose? If that choice is not accepted then I guess that person is not your correct path. I wish you the best.