sharon1981

I have been struggling with my weight my entire life. I had a very caring mother that didnt want to tell me "no" ever...so I was a chubby kid, and I have never been able to get my weight under control. I do not blame my mother AT ALL. I know once your old enough to make your own decisions your weight becomes your responsibility.

I never became the athlete everyone thougt I would be. I left my husband in 2003 and got stuck on Ephedra diet pills. I lost so much weight, but with my next boyfriend the weight came back on. I stopped spending all my time in the gym. Instead I was spending all of my time with him...eating!

My new husband is very supportive, and the All American Athlete. Which is great, but hard for me to deal with because I can't keep up with him. We want to start a family, but I refuse to try until I am happy with myself and my weight. I am afraid that if I get pregnant before I lose the weight, then it will be too late. I am afraid I will gain a lot during my pregnancy and never be able to lose it.