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Hey, here is my long story short. After I went away to college I gained the freshmen 15. After my first year I found my first love... head over heals baby. We dated for a couple months and then because of family problems he had to drop out of school and move back home. He got really depressed and shut everyone out, including me. As a way of coping with a terrible break up I decided to hit the gym and shed those 15.

It was the first time I was actually exersising to lose weight and not just for fun. When I saw the weight going down I was amazed. I couldn't believe I really held the power to my pounds and decided to have a little experiment... how much could I lose. I started at 130... once I hit 118 (High School weigh) I kept going.. I got all the way to 97 by the time I started feeling sick. My mom freaked out and thought I had an eating disorder, which I didn't.. I had a power/control/exersise disorder. Once I stoped and took a step back I relized what I had done to my body.

I have stopped acting crazy but never fully gained back all the weight. I am not at 105 but I would like to be 115. I want to do it the healthy way by eating right and exersising. I want to gain some lean muscle. I'm starting to lift weights but I love running and so this years new years resolution is to be healthy and fit enought to run a half mile and to also be able to donate blood... need to be at least 110. I think these are reasonable expectations and I hope this site will help me in meeting them.