ready4change

I've had weight trouble since I gave up competive swimming as a teenager. First it was anorexia, where I was hospitalized at 39kgs... After that, I returned to 66kgs (my ultimate goal weight)however had been put on some medication which made me balloon up to 96kgs. Following that I lost weight and was again hospitalized for anorexia at roughly the same weight as the first time (40kgs) and after that I was stable for four years at 70kgs. I developed an alcohol problem though, and a couple of years later began my revolving door of several different rehabs, in and out on alternate months. Eventually I went to Arizona for a long term rehab, and while there gained a substantial amount of weight. Currently, I am endeavouring to lose weight in a more healthy way, eating sensibly and exercising four times per week. It seems to be working. I have been sober for 6 months, which I am extremely proud of. Furthermore, the diet I am following is sensible, and the weight is coming off in a relatively stable manner. I am so conscious about how I go about losing this weight, as I feel it would be a tragedy to get sucked into the illness of anorexia again. Frankly, it would be the beginning of another 10 year cycle and I don't want that type of life for myself. I deserve better!