eferrisla

I am a 46 year old woman with six children ages 6 - 25. Currently, there are three children still at home and a husband who is literally Peter Pan.

I never struggled with my weight until ten years ago. Previously my top weight was about 140. In the last ten years I have yo-yoed between 150 and 170. I am really, really sick of it.

I hate being a size 12. It does not fit the image I have of myself. I have never been a vain individual. I thought I was a bit on the average side physically and could clean up pretty well with the right outfit, hair style and make-up.

But on a day to day basis, I guess average in the physical appearance department is right on target. However, this size 12, 170 pound thing is NOT working for me. I would be really proud of myself if I could simply see 135 again. I would not mind bouncing between 135-140 for the rest of my life. It is a healthy weight for a medium frame, 5'6" woman. So that is my goal to feel like I am at a healthy weight and to maintain it for the rest of my life.

It is depressing not being at the weight you want to be at. I never look into mirrors anymore, I stopped buying clothes unless I absolutely have to and then I remand myself to Walmart or Target Large shirts. WTF is that about? It is obvious that I am punishing myself for the weight. That has got to end.

Here's my short term goal:

1) For every 5 pounds of weight I loose I will buy myself something nice to wear and it will NOT be at a discount store.

2) Healthy Weight loss of 1 - 2 pounds a week.

3) No quitting if I hit a plateau. I will find a way to break-free.

4) Exercise a MINIMUM of 3 days a week. NO EXCUSES.

5) Once I hit my goal donate every single LARGE or SIZE 12 piece of clothing I own.