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28 March 2013

So, this week has been pretty good. I've been tracking my foods, something I haven't done for a long time, but it's been good for me this week. Just made me think more about my choices knowing I need to record it. So food choices and overall calorie intake has been good, I think.

Yesterday I got up sooo early to hit the 6am bodypump class, but when I got to the gym a few minutes before 6 the class was completely full! I was bummed! I hadn't brought my ipad or headphone (what I usually use to entertain myself during cardio) but I wasn't going to walk out of the gym... so I did HIIT on the stairmill and then some uphill walking on the treadmill... and ended up with a headache later in the day. Sigh... i think its because i was not hydrated enough since it was so early in the day/so soon after waking. Wouldn't have happened if I could have gone to bodypump!

Instead I will go to tonight's class. This weekend is all just packing, cleaning, etc- no social engagements planned, so it should be easier to keep meals i check and get my workouts in. I need 125 more minutes of exercise between now and Sunday night to complete my goal of 1000 minutes this month!

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26 March 2013

Definitely not feeling my best right now. I ended up taking 3 days in a row off from the gym last week (due to migraine and scheduling) and then took Sunday off as well since we made a last minute decision to visit my parents over the weekend. Combine that with eating a lot of meals out, drinking too much, eating a big meal at my parents house... I just feel blah.

Honestly, it's confusing. It's even more confusing/frustrating now than it was earlier in my "journey" when losing to get down to 150 pounds was my ultimate goal. At least then I just told myself "going forward, I will try harder and work more and 'get back on track.'" Now when I feel bad/guilty about poor diet /exercise choices and related weight gain, I beat myself up for feeling bad and holding myself to an unrealistic standard! I try to love myself no matter what but it just doesn't feel the same at 170+ pounds as it does at 160 or 165. I want to be able to ignore the extra poofiness of my tummy and tell myself that it doesn't change my self worth or even my attractiveness, but to me it still DOES and I can't shake it. I don't WANT to let outside pressures from media, etc dictate what weight or size I should be, but it's so ingrained that it feels like it comes from the inside too. So frustrating...

Yesterday I was feeling so strongly about everything that I tracked calories for the first time in a long time. Not surprised they came in low- always easier to restrict after a weekend of indulgence. I hit the gym and ran- 2 miles, walking, then another mile, but ended up with pre-migraine symptoms and had to take my medication in the evening. I think I need to break up with running. It's frustrating but it seems to be a significant trigger for the headaches and its just not worth it. I need to resign myself to that. I need to find other outdoor activities I like so that when I want to exercise outside I have options. Suggestions??

I may keep trying to track calories for a while just to stay aware of what I'm putting in my body these days. Not how I want to live my life forever but maybe good for a while.

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20 March 2013

Well, so much for not getting a migraine after my 4 mile run on Monday :/ I started to feel some pre-migraine symptoms later in the afternoon, so i took my medication along with OTC painkillers (Excedrine migraine) and laid down for a little while, but I really didn't want to spend all evening in bed so I got up and made the dinner i had been planning. The intense pain and other extreme symptoms never came (probably b/c I medicated early enough) but I did feel really tired and very sensitive to light and sound- everything was so LOUD. ugh... i put myself to bed early and then woke up at 230am and could not get back to sleep! i ended up taking the day off work yesterday and took yesterday and today off from the gym. Taking it easy for 2 days is not the end of the world and it's what my body seems to need. I plan to go to bodypump tomorrow afternoon and get back into it.

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18 March 2013

I ran 4 miles today! Very excited about it- just last week I finally ran 3.1 miles without stopping (after building up run/walk intervals for a while) and today I was able to push it further. So far, no migraine or pre-migraine symptoms (knock on wood). I ate a banana and drank 1/2 a coconut water beforehand and the other half after- these are techniques i've tried before that sometimes help prevent migraines. So, that felt great, I definitely feel like I've been able to increase the intensity of my workouts over the past 2 months. In January the plan was "just get to the gym and so SOMETHING," but even so I didn't meet my goal of 1000 mins. But in Feb I did, and I am on track to do it again this month. I think I feel more motivated to workout when I feel the workouts are more challenging and therefor "doing more" for me.

I did another bodypump class yesterday and increased my weights on both squat and back tracks. I haven't weighed myself since the first, I assume I am still just maintaining. Even with the more intense workouts I know my food choices haven't been great. Beers, fries, and hot chocolate were all culprits over the weekend... not to mention too many meals out last week as I was juggling having workers in the house, shuttling the dog around, etc.

I've got meals planned and a workout schedule for the week so hopefully I can stick with those plans and have a successful week. I really want/need some new spring clothes (although the weather is stubbornly refusing to turn spring-like!) and I just want to feel good about how I look and feel when I go shopping, no matter what size I end up buying.

Have a good week everyone!

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11 March 2013

Just checking in to record a NSV- I finally worked my way back up to running a 5k! For those who don't know I suffer from exercise-induced migraines and running can be a trigger. I have been doing run/walk intervals for a while to build back up my endurance and today I ran 3.25 miles consecutively(in about 36 mins, same time as usual)! So far, I don't feel any of my pre-migraine symptoms. So, that was exciting. I am doing the Color Run 5K in May and my goal is to keep up running 1-2 times a week (while doing non-running cardio/strength on other days) to maintain my endurance and maybe even keep increasing it... at this time last year I was running up to 5 miles (but often triggering migraines).

I did my first March bodypump yesterday and it felt pretty good- I think I'm ready to increase my squat weight again- yeah!! I'm in good shape to meet my March goal of 1000 mins of exercise; already at 435 for the month.

My eating is still not as disciplined as it could be... i always have some excuse to blame it on but I know it all comes down to me and my choices. BUT, I still make great choices most of the time, and I feel confident that I am maintaining my weight, if nothing else. With warmer weather coming I am feeling some of that old "summer clothes are coming, I should go on a crazy crash diet to lose weight before summer" urge, but I know it's a BAD idea and I'm not going to fall into that trap. If I want be fitter for summer, I need to work out consistently, lift heavy weights, and cut out some of the junk that is sneaking its way into my diet. And that's it... so that's the plan.

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