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12 April 2013

Wow! they have made some great changes to the site and the mobile app for Windows. I don't have time to share about why I have been absent so long but I hope to journal again soon. Needless to say, I gained quite a bit of weight but I have not given up.

Weigh-in: 250.2 lb

lost so far: 64.4 lb

still to go: 90.2 lb

Diet followed N/A

(6 comments) on diet Eringiffin's own diet gaining 1.8 lb a week

05 February 2013

Gah! My life is such a mess. I am having a hard time keeping up with journaling because of so many things pulling me in different directions. I can't remember ever feeling so out of control. It's taking a toll on my mental faculties.

All things considered, I am pretty happy with my weight right now. Normally, I would already be neck-deep in self-destructive quick fixes for escaping the pain and suffering I am going through. I am only knee-high this time around. So I am trying to slog through this difficult time as best as I can and not be too hard on myself in the process.

The weigh in today went well. Even though I am still about 2 lbs. higher than my lowest, I have lost 3.8 lbs. from the weigh in last week.

I am very thankful for the financial reserves we had stored up. This will be the first Friday that DH and I will not have a paycheck deposited in our account. Reality is starting to hit home that we need to kick it into high gear to get this company off the ground.

I am thankful for the great people in our lives that support and encourage us. I am thankful for God's hand in everything. When I am weak, He is strong.

Weigh-in: 232.8 lb

lost so far: 81.8 lb

still to go: 72.8 lb

Diet followed reasonably well

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30 January 2013

Sorry I have been out of touch for so long. I wanted to say thank you to everyone who has responded on my journal to offer words of encouragement. It means a lot to me.

I had to take some time out from everything to rest and recouperate from a really emotional week. It helped a lot and I am ready now, more than ever, to continue pursuing my goals and dreams.

I did some research, for peace of mind, and solidified my opinion that I would have a strong case for a wrongful termination suit. However, I decided that I don't want to spend any more time or energy on what is in the past, especially since I wouldn't really consider applying for unemployment as I am planning to be self-employed.

DH and I made a commitment to eating at home more often to save on money and so far it's been great. We are eating more healthy, spending more time together, and saving a ton of money at the same time. I have to remember how to cook! I found some steaks in the freezer today that have been there for over a year. I wonder what the statute of limitations is on frozen foods, hehe.

I didn't make my end of month weight loss goal but I am giving myself a little leeway for all things considered. I have a new goal, though. My birthday is 2/25 and I want to get to 225 by 2/25. My stretch goal is to get to 214 by March 2nd which would be 100 lbs. lost at the one year mark from when I started this journey.

Thanks again to all my buddies who encourage and inspire me to continue on this journey. I am more thankful than ever for all of you!

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24 January 2013

I am still at the same weight today but I am calling it a victory considering the amount of stress in my life currently.

Yesterday I was fired from my job but not for the reason I expected. I expected them to lay me off due to not wanting to pay me if I was not billing at a client site. Instead, they dropped a bomb on me and said they were firing me with cause for violating my employment agreement by owning a share in a competing company.

As those of you who have been reading my journals may recall, my husband recently went into business for himself. He was always very careful to avoid my company's clients when looking for business. The services he is providing are by and large all things that he tried to get them to buy into when he was working for them so he could make them a lot of money but they wouldn't have any part of it. But when they saw his website go live, they freaked out.

I'd love to see them try to prove that his company is in competition with them but I do not have the money to sue for wrongful termination so I just have to move on.

Today I am updating my resume and working on sharpening my skills in a couple of key technologies. Looks like I am going to get the chance to get more current after all. The fact that neither my husband or I are bringing in a paycheck right now and my insurance benefits only last until the end of the month is kind of stressing me out but I think it's going to be ok overall.

Yesterday I had no appetite to eat, so I am sure I was way under my RDI. So far so good today. We have made a commitment to mostly eat from home so that should really help the diet as well. I'm going to be cancelling my gym membership and just trying to use the Kinect and Netflix at home to get in my exercise goals. I've reached out to a buddy to go on more hikes as well.

It's raining today which is like a balm on my frazzled soul. When you live in the desert, rain is a godsend.

So, despite the bad news, I still have a lot to be thankful for. I am glad to be out from working at my former place of employment even though it wasn't the way I would have preferred to leave. I am happy for a day of great weather to chill out and regroup my life goals. I am thankful more than ever for the people I love that love me back.

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23 January 2013

I found out today that my client officially requested someone else to take my place. So, in the morning I will go to the bench. Times are tough at my company. If I am on the bench for too long, I will get laid off. With my husband quitting his job last week, this is really putting a strain on us. He was counting on me keeping this job until he can get his thing going. Well, they haven't canned me yet, so no sense worrying about it.

I just find myself reflecting on the mistakes I made that got me here and I am starting to wonder if I have really hit total burnout. I lack the desire to be the hero that I used to have when I started this career. The cynicism of being unappreciated coupled with a mismatch in my skill set to the jobs at hand has taken the wind out of my sails. Should I think about changing careers? I don't know what else I would be good at.

The counseling session with my dad and stepmom went pretty well I thought. The focus seems to be shifting to what we can do in the future to promote a safe, respectful family environment instead of rehashing old resentments. I still lost my cool once or twice. It doesn't help that TOM just arrived and I am feeling like an emotional minefield.

But through all of this, I have to remind myself that I still have so much to be thankful for. I was just thinking today how amazing it is that everything is perfectly timed in our solar system to provide abundant life on the planet, including the little 'wobble' on the axis which gives both the north and south hemispheres a change in the seasons.

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