Hang in there, Beautiful, & take it one day at a time. I wish there were something I could say to ease your pain, but my experience has been that it takes time to heal, so be good to yourself & give yourself time to mourn your loss. In time, the sadness will be replaced by the joy of the fond memories you have of your Dad. Praying & the belief that I will one day again be with my loved ones who have left this world before me has helped me tremendously bear the grief, but we each mourn in our own way. And, their is no right or wrong way to grief, no set time frame, so go at your own pace, cherish each memory of your Dad, as well as the moments you have with the loved ones still with you. Thinking of you!
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.