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Well, I'm a traveling girl again. My mom fell a second time (did I tell you that already? -- the last couple of days are a bit of a blur) & is in the hospital. She's bruised & a bit sore, but they're more concerned about what seems to be some type of respiratory issue. It's not pneumonia, but she is on an antibiotic & steroid. The nurse said the dr notes mentioned COPD. I haven't heard her diagnosed with that before, but my father suffered horribly from it and was on oxygen. Both of my parents were smokers until they realized the damage it caused & both survived lung cancer. She sounds congested, but her spirits are good. She's just eager to get home, which doesn't sound like it'll be today.
I couldn't decide what to do, but after they admitted her, I knew I better go to check things out & be with her. As you may already know, I'm her only surviving immediate family -- my father passed almost 20 years ago & my sister, my only sibling, 10 years before that. My mom's only sibling, also a sister, passed years ago too. She does have 2 of my dad's cousins, whom I call aunts, there that she is close to. One's health is not good either, but the other & her daughter have been god-sends.... Like each of you!
I'm doing ok, and know this will be a real test of my new healthy, mindful eating & living skills. Last night at home, I felt sugar cravings return & know it's because I'm still working to build new habits for dealing with stress. The old me stuffed those feelings with food, and especially sugar. The new me is working to find other ways to handle those feelings and/or just feel them. I'll do my best, look for ways to take care of me too, and stay curious through it all. I know & so appreciate that I have your love & support!
I was able to get in a workout this morning, and have been praying along the way grateful to have gods love & support too! But, now I'll take another minute to pray again for serenity. And I remind myself that on this one day, and through each one meal, moment, bite, thought & emotion, I'll pray, breathe, journal, log & express my way. I'm eternally grateful for each of amazing you, my family (especially my Mom) & IRL friends, and having the health & wealth to quickly decide and be able to fly home as a small piece of this life I love! Xoxox
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