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Feeling stronger every day! And life is getting back to normal... or at least as normal as it ever is!
I'm almost caught up with my bookkeeping work since being away -- should be all set after this weekend, baring any unexpected complications.
My older son is back at school & sounding again like he's getting back on track, although he always seems to start each semester strong, but falls off as the term progresses. He's the one I worry about. After a great start for him at college, his seizures returned (both my boys have epilepsy) & it took 5 months to find the right medication & dosage to stop them. That was 2 years ago, gratefully. But, his grades dropped dramatically, he failed several classes, dropped some to not fail, leaving him very behind & out of sequence. While he's trying to double major in computer & electrical engineering, I'm not convinced he feels certain about that and/or is passionate about the field. Unfortunately, there doesn't seem to be another field that he's more interested in, except possibly video game design (which he may look into changing to but is not offered where he is now). Last summer, we had him tested and he was diagnosed with ADD. That combined with the high dose of anti-seizure meds somewhat explains the school struggles as the meds make him lethargic while slowing down the brain to prevent seizures. The good news is that he's now registered with the disability office at school & eligible for special services and help -- he just needs to take advantage of it. He's taking 2 classes this summer (all that is offered that he needs) & working 2 part-time jobs. So, all is sounding good & I'm straddling that fine line of wanting to helicopter parent to be sure he stays on top of everything while realizing he's 23 years old. If he stays where he's at, it'll be at least 2 more years before he graduates.
His 20 year old brother is doing great, on track to graduate on time next year & starts his internship in NYC on Monday. He's always been the easy one -- obedient, hard working, very self motivated, etc. But, I see a lot of myself in the eldest, so while its not always been easy with him, I love them both to death.
I'm feeling especially grateful this morning for my boys. Being a Mom has been the highlight of my life! Each stage with my boys has certainly had its ups & downs, but I've thoroughly enjoyed them at every step along the way, including the great young men they've become... each in their own way. So, when I start my day in prayer, I'm including a prayer for each of them --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
And, I'll pray, breathe, post & express over this one day, cleansing meal, drink, moment & emotion at a time being grateful for my boys and all the wonderful people in my life (of course, including all of you!). xoxox (P.S. And, while its inconsequential in comparison, I'm still at goal!)
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120.0 lb
Lost so far: 8.0 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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steady weight
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