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At goal again! Perfect... or is it? Yesterday I was thinking quite a lot about my need to be perfect... another child within -- the perfectionist (Angel, shall we start another team?!?). As I'd mentioned in yesterday's journal, after winning my tennis match, I over-celebrated with food. And even though I told myself that it was ok, everyone overdoes it sometimes, don't beat yourself up, etc, I still felt some disappointment with myself... I want to be perfect! I want to look perfect; wear the perfect outfit; say the perfect thing; be the perfect life of the party, the perfect Mom, wife, daughter, friend; and of course eat the perfect foods in the perfect amounts.
So, today, as I start my day praying for serenity, I'll be praying for the courage to start taking small steps to not only accept my imperfections but bask in them, and the courage to look at & slowly start to change my focus along this twisting, turning, pot hole filled weight loss/life journey toward the goal of not being perfect, but healthier & happier than I was before I started.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
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120.0 lb
Lost so far: 8.0 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 16 April 2013:
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1417 kcal
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Fat: 29.21g | Prot: 64.08g | Carb: 252.50g.
Breakfast: Lactose Free Plain Yogurt, Raw Almonds, Strawberries, Raspberries, Blueberries, Blackberries. Lunch: Plums, Bob's Red Mill Steel Cut Oatmeal, Abbotsford Farms 100% Liquid Egg Whites, Coconut Oil, Strawberries, Raspberries, Blueberries, Blackberries. Dinner: Figs, Chia Seed Pudding, Lactaid Cottage Cheese, Cantaloupe. Snacks/Other: Mangos, Pears. more...
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2126 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Circuit Training - 1 hour, Bicycling (fast) - 15/mph - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 14 hours. more...
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losing 1.0 lb a week
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And here I thought we'd already determined perfection is not only non existent - attaining it is overrated. Brew some tea... I'll be right over :-)
16 Apr 13 by member: FullaBella
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LOL at FullaBella. She always makes me smile. I too second the notion that there is no perfection, well, not really. You are perfect as you are, flaws and all. We do not need to be anything other that what we are. Its a hard lesson to get. That we are already 'enough'. If we could just accept that we are 'enough' as we are and end the constant struggle within, our lives would be much easier and I am sure our eating would fall into place because we would be at peace and therefore no need to use food as medication. May you find a place within you where you can accept yourself as you are, right now. It doesn't mean you can't change your body, the vessel that carries your spirit/soul, but you, your essential self, is beautiful just as it is.
16 Apr 13 by member: sarahsmum
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I agree! Perfection is truly unattainable and totally overrated! I think we should all just strive to be the best "YOU" that "YOU" can be. You really can't ask much more than that, and why should you need to.
16 Apr 13 by member: Mebird
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I feel the same way you do. I also am always out to prove everyone who says I can't do it wrong!
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I used to be a perfectionist. Then I realized that I wasn't getting much accomplished because whatever I did I wanted to be perfect. So I did a 180. Now I do everything half-a$$ed - LOL.
16 Apr 13 by member: BuffyBear
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Ruth thank you for this post. What you wrote carried many truths for me. I needed to read it.
Thank you for sharing your journal and wisdom!
16 Apr 13 by member: jaime30024
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Hold the phone --- Perfection is unattainable ---- ??????? And just when I thought I was perfect ------ ;-P ---- They are correct. It is not attainable first off because we are human and second we learn as we go. So striving to be perfect in my mind is a goal that may never come, but provide a healthy and happy journey trying to get there. I on the other hand made a decision since joining here and taking on this journey, that I would set the goal to be "better". I want to be better in all aspects of my life. Attainable? Yes it is. Setting this goal provides the same result as striving for perfection without the let down of never achieving perfection. Try it. "Be Better".
Congrats on hitting the goal weight again. I know and understand how hard it is to do that.
-J
16 Apr 13 by member: deadcenter
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I love reading all these entries. You are all so encouraging!!
16 Apr 13 by member: Dianem65
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