jsfantome's Journal, 16 June 2012

You know, it's kind of funny (funny odd, not funny ha ha!) - but everytime I would come to the computer to look up someone's phone number or an address, or something... I would click on here out of habit, and read the lovely thoughts and love and messages on my journals, and they really helped me get thru these last moments of this past week.

I genuinely appreciate all of your love and compassion.

Everything on Thurs was just as I wanted it to be. Just as my Mom wanted. From the gorgeous yellow roses that seemed to be the size of extra large grapefruit - to all the people who came to honor my mom's life - to an unbelieveable response of love poured out by my church 'family' and a house full of food (so much so I had to give about 1/2 of it away to a food bank at the end of the day). The songs, the poems, the readings, the prayers... it was just so special to me.

My family - well, they are all still processing... but I think they are doing fairly well. No major issues at least. Nothing I am aware of. But I am only responsible for me - and I am doing well. My husband, and my cousin from Alabama - are holding me up, keeping me strong, and loving me through my grief.

We went out last night for Lobster Pie (in honor of my Mom!) and it was the first 'bread/cracker crumb' topping of any kind I have had in 3 years ;) Wow was it good!!!

As we clinked our wine glasses my 92 yr old Auntie says to all of us at the table

"Life, is neither short nor long... fat or skinny... happy or sad... Life, is a journey. Travel well. Travel safely. But not too safe. Live a little, have some fun, love lavishly and travel on to your next destination with no regrets!!!!!!"

My mom did that. And I am so happy for her, her next destination is Eternity w/ God.

Much Love.
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Sweet Paula, I love you and I am lifting you all in praying. Trusting Jesus to heal hurting hearts...... Isaiah 41:10 xoxoxo - love you sooo much - Evie 
16 Jun 12 by member: Evie1010
Paula, I am praying for you, my sweet friend! I am truly sorry for the loss of your dear mother. You are a good daughter, you took good care of your mom even when it wasn't easy, and you did it with a loving heart, just as God asks us to do! When the time comes, you will hear "Well done, my good and faithful servant!" I love the toast by your sweet auntie! What a wise woman. As for your mom, she raised a wonderful, wise, kind, devout woman, and I know she is proud of you! HUGS and lots of love and prayers, my dear friend! Take care! 
16 Jun 12 by member: ctlss
There are no words I can add to all the words spoken before me...I just read your journal and hadn't realized the change in your life. I know too well the loss of one's mother...they are sweet angels that can never be replaced nor should be. You are in my prayers and I will ask God to watch closely over you in the days ahead and that He hold you gently in the palm of His hand forever. Hugs and lots of love.  
16 Jun 12 by member: 2227Gwen
Paula, it sounds like a wonderful day with your family, one that your mom would so have loved. My thoughts and prayers are with you. 
16 Jun 12 by member: Helewis
What beautiful words of inspiration from your aunt. I must make a note of them. It sounds like you are in as good a place as anyone can be at a time like this. At peace, and surrounded by loved ones. All the best in the coming days. 
04 Aug 12 by member: yduj57

     
 

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