jsfantome's Journal, 16 May 2012

dont ever feel u have to apolagize to ur friends here.we love u unconditionaly.i know it seems now that u r so low that u will never see the light again but trust me it cant rain all the time.have faith. 

Paula, you're obviously having a real tough go of it right now. I'm sorry to hear that; you've been such an encouragement to everyone on here. We don't think you are a hypocrite; everyone struggles, and everyone thinks they have a handle on things at one time or another, and they want to share what happens to be working for them at the time. But, let's face it, most of us are emotional eaters, and when things go south in our lives, we turn to food, or some other escape. What can we do to help?  

Paula - a Hypocrite you are NOT. The purpose of FS is to provide encouragement - not condemnation. We have all been where you are. Remember, whatever you are going through is only temporary. When you are good and ready you will deal with this. For now, one thing at a time.  

I agree - I have read your journal entries before and you are wonderful and helpful to many people. Don't throw that out - just ask for help. Do ONE teeny tiny little thing today that will help you feel better about yourself without food: buy some flowers, take a short walk outdoors,anything else but please do not beat yourself up.  

thank you! all of you!!! there's no easy solutions to some of the issues... but eating my way out of my pain isn't the answer. and i know that. OK - listen up... it isn't the answer for any of us!!! that being said, I have wallowed in my 'grief' and I am trying to encourage myself to just CUT THIS KIND OF THINKING OFF!!! But my brain - literally - wants me to keep eating these kinds of foods. It's terrible. I remember at the very beginning...I said, I never want to be one of those people who said "I did Atkins 3 years ago...but put all the weight back on!" This lack of control is scary, and it's soooo unlike me. But I feel possessed. And when you are at a low point...it's even worse, cause you don't feel the will, or the drive, or the WANT TO! But coming here..and typing, does make me feel better. Knowing you care. Knowing you've read this...holds me accountable. So THANK YOU!!! Much Love. 

Paula - you are an amazing woman and an inspiration. But - you are not perfect. And - no one expects you to be. If any thing, you are more of an inspiration for being human... being a comfort eating... being just like the rest of your friends here. For all the support and help that you've given to so many of us, we are all here to help. Even if means letting you rant and then telling you to knock it off and get back on track. Praying for your speedy recovery. Love, Heidi 

Paula - I know so much how you feel and many others do as well. Coming here, venting about life and about yourself is the best thing for you to do. The first step to a turn. I have confidence in you, you will turn it around again. So many times you have helped, encouraged others, now it is our turn to encourage you. Life is a roller-coaster and our eating habits are as well. But for every down there is an up and that's were you are going. And every time we go up we come out stronger.  

Sweetie, if you dint care, you wouldn't journal about it. Take a few deep breaths, do what you need to do to get your head in the game, and when you're ready, you'll be back, better than ever. xx 

I'm so sorry to hear about your hardships right now. I hope things improve for you and your family. Don't be hard on yourself about the ups and downs of life and the way it affects our fitness journal. We've all turned to food at those times before too. We have to just continue to encourage each other to bounce back ASAP. This isn't easy but when you get your mojo back we know you'll lose again. We are here to listen to you through the tough times so vent away. We'll be here to celebrate with you when you get your mojo back.  

Sad to hear you are in a 'bad' place right now.... Don't stay away from us..... Journalling at least gets someof your feelings, frustration and pain out of your system. I am not neive enough to think it solve your problems - but it makes us all feel better sharing the pain. I hope things improve, I believe you are strong and WILL see the light at the end of the tunnel. It may take a while, but you will get there. (((hugs))) 

Thank you for coming here to share with us. Obviously this is a very caring, understanding and supportive bunch of people who would never condemn you, and who are so very sorry that you have been going through a rough time. It has been a hard year for so many lately. Hang on! Do some good things for yourself, take care of yourself, it will help you through this. Tale your vitamins and supplements! When we need them most, we dont take them. I wish you lots of love and light! <3  

Paula,your are soo human..you are a very strong person and we all know it..life throws a wrench in our plans..and we get lost...but I know in my heart you will find your mojo and get back to where you were..right now you need to focus on what the problems your facing..but stay away from the bad foods girl...or you will really feel bad..Praying for you and all that is making you feel this way...I'm in your corner and want you to know that...{{{HUGS}}}...