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A reality check.
I have forgotten my diet journal once again.
Saturday I wrote nothing down. Yesterday I wrote it down, but didn't stay under 1900. Would have been fine, had I not eaten a bite once I got home. But I did. And it was grazing. (Now I am stuffing my face with 1/4 c raw almonds.)
Had a conversation with God on the way to work this morning. Shared with Him my struggles. I abhor that my hips are around to 48" again. I have a pair of my Dad's old lounge pants that have waist of 44 - 46" and I have to wiggle to get in/out of them.
The quick fix diets look tempting, yet I don't want to do more harm than good to my body. So I don't try them. I keep focusing and refocusing and focusing and refocusing on exercise that might help. When really I just need to rein in my eating. Darn comfort foods. I do okay during the day, it's just after the sun goes down that my Mrs Hyde eating comes out and creates havoc.
I need to start getting up early again to get in the exercise when I'm not exhausted. Sleepy, but not exhausted. Knowing the first 2 weeks of doing it will be challenging.
June 1 - a new month to make improvements in my health and in my diet, and portion control. I looked at my schedule and thought, oh I can totally get in Ab Ripper X tonight when I run. Knowing that by the time I get home, I will only do the running part. The Ab Ripper X takes too much energy and hurts and makes my abs jittery.....and reminds me how far, far, far away I've gone from my more toned self in summer of 2012.
It's like I know I can find it again, it's just hard. And it Will Be Hard until I Start Working On It.
I need a pinkie finger promise there is someone else on this site who reads this and goes "Yeah, that sounds like me"...and who will commit for one month to kick my BUTT and become a drill sergeant and get on my case when I slack off. Kind words are good and appreciated, but I need more.
Happy Monday!
Diet Calendar Entry for 02 June 2014:
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1303 kcal
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Fat: 25.68g | Prot: 34.80g | Carb: 251.59g.
Breakfast: Cinnamon, Honey, Light Strawberry Yogurt, Ezekiel 4:9 Sprouted 100% Whole Grain Bread. Lunch: Sweet Cherries, Bananas, Bell Plantation PB2 Chocolate Powdered Peanut Butter, Food For Life Baking Company Ezekiel 4:9 Sprouted 100% Whole Grain Bread. Snacks/Other: Dried Cranberries, King Leo Peppermint Puffs, Hard Candy, Yogurt Covered Raisins, Almonds, Kroger Bottled Water, Black Tea, Coca-Cola Diet Coke (Can). more...
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I'm with you on the Mrs Hyde thing. For me it's when everyone is quiet, my hubby's at work, the kids are in bed, then I feel the need to devour anything bad for me. I'm working on it, and I think it will be a lifelong struggle, but at least being conscious of it I have been able to stop myself sometimes. If you are exhausted and get a run in, but not ab ripper, don't beat yourself up, you could have done neither. This is hard, but you can do it! Be proud of all of the workouts you do get in and don't get down about the few that you miss. Eating is the hardest part for me, but if I record I do well, if I don't I tend to convince myself that those calories don't really count somehow. Set that calorie goal and stick to it. You've got this!
02 Jun 14 by member: mars2kids
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I to am a Mrs. Hyde in the evening, not always, but often, and yes this has been a lifelong struggle. Just don't give up.
02 Jun 14 by member: icemom
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