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Time for some truth and reality.
I have been reading everyone's journals, and thinking to myself that you all are amazing and determined people. I am not writing this to get any sympathy, nor am I downing myself. (well maybe a little disappointed in myself). I have come to realize that I have not been giving 100% to my weight loss journey. I can give you so many excuses why I haven't but what for, I am sure you have heard them before. I do have the best intentions, just get somewhat lost along the way. I do like going to the gym, and when I do go I really put an effort into it. Again, that isn't always true.
Writing this down , I guess I am hoping it will open my eyes and see what I have been doing. Please if you read this, just know that I honestly know what I have to do, it is just doing it.
I do have to say that I have a lot of things going on in my life right now, such as health issues, money issues, etc. I know all excuses, but it is taking a toll on me mentally and I am trying to deal with it all without having to bother anyone. Like I said earlier, I am not in any way looking for sympathy or answers, I just needed to write it down to come face to face with what is going on. Everyone, keep up the amazing work you are doing and have a blessed weekend.
PS: I do want to say that I understand that everyone has the same if not similar issues going on in there own life and I am not the only one. Be strong in your journeys. :)
Diet Calendar Entry for 16 May 2014:
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1722 kcal
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Fat: 65.55g | Prot: 68.05g | Carb: 224.00g.
Breakfast: Kellogg's Frosted Flakes, Milk (2% Lowfat with Added Vitamin A and Protein). Lunch: Domex Superfresh Growers Granny Smith Apple (Medium), Nature Valley Protein Chewy Bars - Peanut, Almond & Dark Chocolate. Dinner: Ore-Ida Extra Crispy Golden Crinkles French Fried Potatoes, Cooked Asparagus (from Fresh, Fat Added in Cooking), Maker's Mark skinless chicken breast. Snacks/Other: Turkey Hill Vanilla Bean Premium Ice Cream, El Sabroso Original Guacachip Tortilla Chips, Pop Secret 100 Calorie Homestyle Popcorn. more...
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Sherrie, I'm glad you came back to say that. If you're willing to settle for being that extra 30 pounds overweight for the rest of your life, it probably won't kill you! My 130 pounds, on the other hand, would have probably killed me, so we were in different places. Now that I've come this far, there isn't any stopping me. I may as well go all the way and land at 150 pounds since I've come this far. Besides wanting to live longer, I also don't want to be in pain. I don't want creaky joints. I don't want to be the old lady in the scooter at Wal-Mart. I don't want to be the diabetic, or on blood pressure meds forever. I want to be able to ride the Segue and the Zip-Line on vacation and not be turned away because I weigh too much I'm tired of plus size clothing. I want to be able to cross my legs when seated. I want to play tennis or hike without having a heart attack. So I guess there are things I want more than I want to do eat anything I want, anytime I want. I've had that for 50 years and it's not all it's cracked up to be. Sherrie, good for you that you had the guts to tell the truth and good for you. There may come a time when you change your mind, so keep checking back with yourself and see if things change.
16 May 14 by member: mrsmole
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You're doing great admitting your struggles to yourself and everyone. And what on earth do you mean, you don't want to bother anyone? I hope you don't mean us, your diet buddies! That's what we all signed up for, to support each other! Keep on writing, we're praying for you and cheering you on, you will come out the other side of this a slimmer, stronger person.
16 May 14 by member: Buckeye Birder
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Northern said it all perfectly ..... very few of us get to 100%. Every journey towards our goal has it's ups and downs; the important thing is to stay on it ...REGARDLESS.
17 May 14 by member: JennBuck61
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By journaling you are being honest to yourself and sharing with others. I know it can be hard at times but I know I feel better after I have entered my journal. We all need support and when someone supports what we write and comments it means a great deal to me. God Bless...
17 May 14 by member: MomjjjaLou
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You are doing what you can Sheerie! Don't worry because 100% is not a realistic thing to try to do and it's often not manageable and bound to fail. And, when things in life get in the way, that's definitely no small obstacle to it. Instead of giving 100% try instead to make smaller, slower, progressive and more manageable improvements and, that way, you will definitely get a much more long-lasting change. Don't forget that no one else is in your shoes, your situation, so it's unfair for yourself to compare yourself to others, who are in different situations. Don't do that, you're just painting an unrealistic version of yourself. That's the equivalent of comparing yourself to others at the gym. Most of those buffed people have been training for years on end and some of them have more time available for it. Real progress takes a lot of time and is usually made in a very stable, sustainable and progressive way. You have no one to compare yourself to but your past self :)
17 May 14 by member: euheide
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Your biggest obstacle is thinking about what you did wrong before. That way you're defeating yourself. Forget all about that. Only the future matters, the past is gone. Doesn't exist. Be positive and think only about what you can do, as smaller as it may seem, all those things will amount to a big change. :)
17 May 14 by member: euheide
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Most importantly of all, don't push yourself, do only sustainable efforts. Too much intensity will make most people break sooner or later!
17 May 14 by member: euheide
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Things have to remain enjoyable. You're not supposed to be suffering while exercising for example! :)
17 May 14 by member: euheide
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