FullaBella's Journal, 23 April 2014

Wednesday ~ April 23rd. No big news, bragging rights or confessions. I feel like I've lived on the internet the past two days cleaning up garbage. Either some stupid web crawler or opportunistic bottom feeder linked the website to THEIR online business with MY physical shop information. So, people who would look me up and find me online then think 'oh, how convenient.. here's the website. No reason to go in person.'

Yesterday I'd had enough of customers walking in being aggravated that I didn't have 'what my website claimed I had' so I've been busy claiming and editing the many (at least 150 sites so far) out there.

So while I was at it I googled myself (okay, I guess that sounds tacky enough to warrant a confession) and discovered I'm apparently employed by the corporation that took over the corporation from which I retired three years ago. Where's my paycheck, folks? Ahh, artificial intelligence. There are just no words for it ... at least none that I can use in print in my journal without hash marks replacing my sentences.

So guess what happens when you roast a turkey and a chicken together on the same night? Your dog goes crazy. Or at least, mine did. She kept sniffing and randomly barking at me in between whimpering and giving me the most horrid 'stink eye'. You'd think I made her wait 'til noon on Christmas day to unwrap presents or something. I think she was more relieved to see those birds come out of the oven than I was. More 'good, nutritious food' for my 'need something in a hurry' eating options.

I was thinking about something just now reading a PM from a dear friend here and I almost posed the question there but thought I'd put it here and get a wider range of answers. So here goes, all of my dear friends. Survey time.

Do you think we have been so brainwashed by the younger and thinner models year after year that subliminally we connect thinner and smaller with youth? Like shaving off another size or two equates to being younger and living longer? That after a couple of decades of staring at the faces of teenage waifs on the covers of magazines and TV, we no longer feel comfortable in our own skin at any age? (( And yes, I know not all of my friends here are as old as me but I think most of are at least in your twenties ... nearly 10 years older than the average runway model. ))

Anyway, just a thought.

I love how the conversations here spark thoughts and learning. And in case you really don't believe how much I read and appreciate your comments on my journal the following will prove (I do).

Yo asked me about my reference to the 'bulletproof' breakfast yesterday and how it compares to bulletproof coffee.

For me, personally, it was just a phrase I use when I figure out which foods 'last longer' satisfying my hunger. I chuckled at how the thought of 'liver and onions' is an appetite suppressant for many. I understand. But I have found it stays with me longer throughout the day than any other food.

It's very hard for me to not do my usual 'overboard OCD' thing and eat it every day. Then again, it'd probably be good for bringing up my blood count and turning my anemia around. I 'don't' eat it every day because it's hard to eat anything else that day ~ and I'm just not sure right now if it would be enough nutrition for me.

But wondering about how I used that phrase, bulletproof, I googled (again, twice in one week... sorry) and there actually IS a bulletproof diet. Who knew? So much to read and compare now ~ a quick cursory look at it would seem I've been doing that all along, or at least, the past year or so when I finally accepted that there is such a thing as 'good fat'. That was a HARD one for me as MY generation is trying to recover from the 'fat free, low fat, no fat, fat is bad' blah blah brainwashing cr*p. I still shudder thinking about all those egg yolks I tossed down the sink.

Anyway ~ ATF is fine, I'm trusting F2MC is still happening and I just emailed Dr. May of EWYL and thanked her again for her philosophy being the core of my daily eating plan. She'd just posted an article about 'dieting arrogance' - it was interesting. I'll share it later or tomorrow if anyone else is interested or ... LOL... feels too shy too google it themselves.

Have a wonderful day, my friends.

Bella

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1884 kcal

Fat: 85.05g | Prot: 141.32g | Carb: 144.34g.   Breakfast: Albertsons Onion & Chive Cream Cheese, Turkey, Mission Flour Tortillas (Fajita Size), Nature's Best Zero Carb Isopure Drink - Mango Peach, Coffee-Mate Sugar Free Hazelnut Liquid Coffee Creamer, Spectrum Organic Virgin Coconut Oil, Milk (2% Lowfat with Added Vitamin A). Dinner: Turkey Meat, Chicken Breast, Giblet Gravy, Kraft Stove Top Stuffing Mix For Turkey. Snacks/Other: Chocolate Chips. more...

3005 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Standing - 3 hours, Sitting - 3 hours, Sleeping - 7 hours and 30 minutes, Housework - 1 hour, Shopping - 1 hour, Resting - 1 hour, Driving - 30 minutes, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 2 hours, Desk Work - 5 hours. more...