LuC2's Journal, 18 April 2014

I am so Proud of you !! Great attitude about it all. 

Love your thoughts on balance. I have been meaning to write an entire post on finding balance for a while. I think you've got the right idea! :)  

Sounds like you have a great plan and attitude in place. Getting angry is probably just a reaction to feeling crummy which affects our ability to be as effective as we would like. A natural reaction! 

Way to go! Since you won't be weighing in every day, please keep your journal up-to-date! I learn so much from you! 

resistance is futile, you will be assimilated ...  

I can relate to this SO much. The two times I've been ill or physically incapacitated since starting this weight loss journey I was angry as well. And, like you, I questioned "why?" I know we need to incorporate all of life's ups and downs and how to cope with it. When our body needs TLC, that's what we need to give it. But, I had specific goals (12 lbs. by Easter, 18 lbs. by my annual physical) and didn't want them to get swept to the side. I applaud your soul-searching and desire to not be a slave to "calories, scales, running shoes and rice cakes." I had been working out 6-7 days a week and due to injury, pain, and just busy life, I have finally relaxed a little and realized that 3-5 times a week is still SO much better than my previous sedentary lifestyle! 

Great attitude - LOVE the balance idea 

LuC2, today’s journal is amazing. I almost missed it and it would have been my loss. So many of us need to read your words about finding balance. And the next time you are not well take it easy on yourself a bit. I’m glad you are feeling better.  

Hi, ChicaLean, I was awake and alert all day today and that has not been true since last Sunday! Whatever I had really put a wallop on me (as I watch my youngest son dancing and spinning in the floor as if he did not bring home the modern-day equivalent of the bubonic plague)! Yes, today was much better. I'm not very good at relaxing and I thank you guys for allowing me to vent all this week! :D 

Here’s to the innocent little germ carriers of the world. You gotta love them. I bravely (or stupidly) ate behind my youngest niece last weekend and the next morning I woke in a puddle of sweat. I knew the risk but I was trying to prove that she was not a little germ. I was wrong. ‘Tis the season to start building up our immune systems.  

my mom was really hard on me as a kid I was praised for being pretty but never good enough she felt the same about her mom ,, hmm I'm 62 and just being able to see this when I stated with her Oct 2012 and going thorough cancer to boot no hair lost eyebrows toenails cried when I lost my eye lashes dint even know I loved them so much till I lost them any ways it wasn't an easy time for me stayed with mom & dad for almost a month Mom was always on to me for something and my dad wow never seen this before then I realized were I got being to hard on myself so glad I have come to terms with it and Im a whole lot kinder to myself these days hmmmm I just want to live a life of a heather me if the Lord spared my life the least I can do is take better care of me <3 easy does it sweet pea <3  

Wow dreamcatcher10, thanks for sharing. It's amazing how many of carry so much emotional baggage and no matter the age we can revert back to unhealthy times. And if we never get a chance to heal it's usually lurking and waiting to emerge at our most vulnerable moments. I am so happy you are a survivor in more ways than one. ♥ 

I can understand your frustration. We all get the same way. Don't let the little setbacks get you down. We all have them. You have to think of this journey as a lifestyle change. I've been at this for over 800 days now. I know that I will have to watch everything I eat for the rest of my life. I'm ok with that, because I never want to weigh 350 lbs. AGAIN. You will make it. Just keep the faith.