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Gained a few pounds, not really worried about it, honestly. I'm starting to see a trend in stress levels with my weight. When I get stressed, even when I don't eat more, my body starts to retain more of what I eat and less of the nutrients. Two weeks ago I ran out of the mood support supplements that I had been taking since Feb. to help me with emotional trauma that happened over the holidays and I noticed a difference a week in. I could still control my moods on some level (I've been diagnosed bipolar since I was 15) but as the stresses piled on I found myself slipping. I got those in the mail while I was at work last night and have a feeling that having them back will put me back on track, not so much with my weight as with my emotional stability (which I consider so much more important).
I don't know if I mentioned it before, but at last weigh before this little experiment (which was in October) I weighed around 180 lbs. I was used to that weight and actually fairly happy with it. I had a bit of squish around the edges but it didn't get in the way of walking and functioning. Since then I went through a few *very* painful situations as well as a wonderful light hiking trip in Peru. These things combined with the supplements and positive thinking (in an attempt to better myself) I ended up dropping weight faster than I was prepared for.
I am realizing now that I don't really know what to do in my body anymore. It isn't a huge change physically because of my frame and the way I gain/lose weight, but I still notice a few things with how clothing fits and how I feel to the touch. A big part of my stress recently involves being around an ex-sweetie and close friend who shares feelings with me but distance, energy, and time constraints keep us as friends rather than anything more complex. I haven't been this weight since Freshmen year in high school and I found myself getting insecure. Insecurity isn't something I'm terribly used to so it came as a *huge* shock for me.
Who ever heard of being insecure because you got *closer* to the societal norm? So I'm almost relieved to have gained two pounds back but also trying to curb my stress levels. Here's to B-vitamins, water, and St. John's Wort!~
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153.0 lb
Lost so far: 7.0 lb.
Still to go: 13.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 17 April 2014:
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1922 kcal
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Fat: 91.95g | Prot: 91.89g | Carb: 178.52g.
Breakfast: Coffee with Sugar, Hunt's Chocolate Pudding Snack Pack, Jimmy Dean Sausage, Egg & Cheese Croissant. Lunch: Nissin Ramen Noodles with Shrimp Soup Cup, Apples. Dinner: Tillamook Extra Sharp Cheddar Cheese, Ground Beef (95% Lean / 5% Fat, Patty, Cooked, Broiled), Coffee, Hot Pockets Ham & Cheese, Coffee with Sugar. Snacks/Other: Meadow Gold Chocolate Ice Cream. more...
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gaining 2.3 lb a week
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