Ms Elizabeth's Journal, 15 April 2014

I think my love yourself challenge is working for me. I've noticed I'm happier. I'm not down on myself as much. Instead I'm laughing, I'm smiling, I'm happy.. I'm even taking a leap of faith this morning and accepted a friend invite on facebook from someone in hubbies life who I have distanced myself from. I finally think I'm able to love myself enough to not let their judgement or opinions on my life affect me. And if I'm wrong.. I can always unfriend them again. By accepting the invite I feel like I'm showing that I am the bigger person. I am the strong, caring, and giving person that will do things to make my loved ones happy. BUT.. I will not let this person have any negative impact on my life. This is last chance. They will not steam roll back into my life and cause chaos. It's a baby step of sorts. Plus I'm amazing and I kick butt so I'm pretty sure I could take her if I needed to. lol

Diet.. I'm doing alright. I'm not obsessing over baby weight. I'm just trying to eat well, stay active, and be healthy. I even forgot to weigh in this morning. How I went from weighing in every morning to forgetting my 1 week weigh in I'm not sure. Maybe I've been kidnapped by aliens and they did something screwy to my brain. Maybe all the baby hormones are making me loopy. Or maybe.. loving yourself and reminding yourself why every day really does something to your outlook. It could be emotional prozac.

Motivation.. I've seen a woman jogging on my way to work two days in a row now. She is amazing! Fantastic shape. Arm muscles I would die for. Not too skinny but not too thick and great muscle tone. Obviously someone who takes care of themselves. Then I get to work where two co-workers are talking diets.. One only eats 600 calories a day. The other is only eating meat, eggs, and cheese. Neither of these people look like the jogger. They look.. sickly. It could be the lighting in here but I want to be amazing jogger woman. Today I will workout and eat right so after this pregnancy I can continue my journey to becoming amazing jogger woman. I want arm muscles.. and to be able to jog more than 20 feet without wondering why anyone in their right mind jogs..

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I think I delivered the same 'advice' to my postal carrier yesterday who asked me what I did to lose weight as he wants to be 'smaller'. I told him to start with his health and worry about the size later. That guy hauls bags and walks miles every day. I'll take that over skinny in a heart beat. Someday, I'll jog. Right now the only way I'm ever going to jog is if someone's chasing me. 
15 Apr 14 by member: FullaBella
PS I thank you in prayer every day but forget to write it here - thank you for starting this challenge. I think you should keep it going year 'round. I don't think 4 weeks is going to be enough to reverse decades of being mean to myself. 
15 Apr 14 by member: FullaBella
Awe thanks Bella! I wonder if I could keep it going year round. In about 4 months it could turn into something like.. I love myself and I have spitup on my shoulder. lol 
15 Apr 14 by member: Ms Elizabeth
Very well put.  
15 Apr 14 by member: jparlett
I am enjoying the challenge too. It really makes me think about the positives about myself, rather than focusing on the negative. There have been a few light bulb moments during this challenge. :) I've started jogging and it's hard to get going, but once I'm started it gets a little easier. Then when I'm about 1 1/2 miles from home, I tell myself, you can't stop moving your feet now, or you won't get home, because I'll be damned if I'm going to call my hubby to come drive me home unless I've broken something or I'm gushing blood. You can be that jogger someday, just keep pushing. :) 
15 Apr 14 by member: mars2kids
I want to be jogger woman too... working on it. You are doing wonderfully, thank you for the challenge. I am most certainly benefiting from participating :-) 
15 Apr 14 by member: Annabelle3117
Wow,,, sounds like that jogger really motivated you to meditate on your own life. Isn't it wonderful how some things really make us think, do, or change our perspective on things? Your doing great tho!! Keep it up ;) 
15 Apr 14 by member: RoeCampy
Glad to hear you have a more positive, healthier outlook. For what it's worth I think you'll be able to do the jogging like you want to and start looking more like that woman you admire after you give birth. I am not really surprised about the coworkers you describe. That seems unfortunately very stereotypical of diet culture. People who are genuinely interested in health make life changes and incorporate better nutrition and fitness into their lifestyle. They don't necessarily talk about so much because it's part of their life, not a shortcut to their life. (My MIL comes to mind here. She saw a picture of herself, didn't like what she saw and decided to make changes. She does Pilates and weight watchers regularly, and she doesn't act legalistically/ go to extremes about food. We'll even go out for Chinese as a family sometimes and she eats reasonable portions and is conscious about her choices. At least when I've been around I don't recall her talking about dieting. She talks about her life- travel, spending time with friends and family, hobbies, work. She gets it and she lives it.) I kind of feel a mix of pity and sympathy for people like your diet obsessed coworkers because they spend so much energy being busy with things that aren't helping them get closer to the things they say they want, but there is cognitive dissonance about what they really want. They don't want to be healthy, they want "to diet", and there is some dysfunctional, short lived satisfaction available in that. It's a risky and relatively futile lifestyle, but it's easier in terms of instant gratification. I am glad you are conscious of the difference and are aiming for the better thing. :)  
16 Apr 14 by member: MrsTofu
Your love yourself challenge is amazing. I missed the start day so it wouldn't let me in, but a friend is sharing and it has really challenged me. I've loved every word. THANK YOU 
17 Apr 14 by member: sharonfriz

     
 

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