Sasi Jo's Journal, 15 March 2014

It's Saturday morning, March 15th, 2014. I completely crashed and gave in to the monster of self pity. On Thursday my dad called to tell me he had cancer. Being an emotional eater....my emotions went haywire and I allowed my mouth to intake any and everything I could push in. I have no excuses. I knew exactly what I was doing but didn't want to stop. I spent most of yesterday in bed feeling sorry for myself and ate nothing but carbs when I did get up.

I feel like crap!! Not in a way of self pity, or feeling bad, or even depression but from eating those carbs. My body literally feels like crap. I'm sluggish, little to no energy and this is NOT how I want my life to be. It's been this way far to long.

My dad is the 1st family member ever diagnosed with cancer. He has been battling poor health for many many years. His heart only works 30% of what it should, he is diabetic, his lungs are in poor condition, his kidneys are failing....and the list goes on. He has made many changes in his eating habits and for that I am so very happy for him. He has shown strength like no other, but Thursday he said he was sure he could fight much more. Broke my heart.

My heart goes out to those of you who are survivors, who battle and who have family members who battle this ugly monster. You are in my prayers!

Today I'm forcing myself to get up, move and get outside. Now that I know this ugly illness has reared it's head in my family I want to be the healthiest me ever. Not only for my dad but for my future great grandchildren. I shall leave a legacy from here on out of a healthy lifestyle!!!!!!


Diet Calendar Entry for 15 March 2014:
593 kcal Fat: 45.03g | Prot: 38.97g | Carb: 5.84g.   Breakfast: Tap Water, Strawberries, Ground Beef (80% Lean / 20% Fat). more...
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Sasi, I have been where you are. My mom had breast cancer, my dad had prostate cancer, I have had cervical cancer, and right before dad died he had surgery for colon cancer...it was the worst kind he could have. I know EXACTLY where you are. My heart aches for you, my sweet friend. I wish I was with you so I could give you one of my hugs in person. Until the wedding, or the next time you are in town and come to visit us at ROC, this virtual one will have to do. I love you, and I am here if you need to talk...TALK to me, don't fall back into that carb pit. I have been there for almost 3 years and it is a desolate place and so very hard to climb out of. I am here for you, and always will be. <3 PS...as for the binge, eh, we all do it. Now time to try to control the emotional eating!  
15 Mar 14 by member: ctlss
Sooooo love you lady!!!! I'm hoping to come to town a week before the wedding...as long as I have a place to stay. Can't swing a hotel (blah!) and Ty and Heather just rented a 1 bdrm apt and will need "their" time as newlyweds. Counting on that hug! Trying to hang on and not allow the carb monster to take control. Sooo love you! 
16 Mar 14 by member: Sasi Jo
Going thru tough times makes it hard to follow all rules. You'll be great. 
16 Mar 14 by member: rthunder032

     
 

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