Hey there, I completely understand. I constantly test myself and every-time I do really good, I stop and then undo all my hard work. Maybe my personality is mentally and emotionally, self destructive, undeserving, scared to succeed, scared to fail. All the above or any degree. I went on the scale and gained all I had lost. I did not do that bad on my eating but I completely stopped exercising. I have to get to "one month" of moving. Hang in there I will not give up. I'm starting over!