OMG...I could never go that long without sex!!! Leaving is hard even when you know it's what you should do. I felt the same about my ex. I was so worried that I would never make it financially with 2 little ones. As it turned out I actually had more money than I had when he was with me. (and he doesn't pay child support!) Turns out he was draining me emotionally, physically, mentally and financially. What a relief it was to figure out I could make it on my own. I know you'll get there...you've already decided, it's just finding the means. Good luck. I know you can do it.