LisaPhenon's Journal, 06 May 2013

Oh the poor girl, anxiety attacks are no laughing matter, it can be really overwhelming. She'll get her work under control, it really takes a lot less time to actually do the work than schools allot for it, most of the day is taken up in repetitive tasks like taking attendance and other pointless non education related things. She'll get caught up in not time. EAT SOMETHING before you go to class, you need something! 

I had a sandwich. Just sat with Makaila and organized everything, and wrote her a work schedule which included 15 minute breaks. Now I have to find directions to this gym I'm going to. I've never been there. 

OK, momma Colly needs to know you're taking care of yourself, too! Your baby will get past this, and learn to do this on her own, it may just take a different path for her to get there. But she will. You're setting a great example for her by scheduling it out and scheduling the breaks in, so many parents would just sit a kid down and make them work. I do sometimes do that with mine, but usually only because he's farting around and not actually working. 

It's great you are there for your daughter, I know what aniexty an panic attacks are like, they just hit you out of nowhere. How was Zumba? 

I'm glad you asked about zumba lol. It was brutal, but I loved it. I have honestly never had an experience like that. Well, my Saturday zumba instructor invited me to this other gym she teaches at because her friend was going to record the class and put it on you tube. Well, I was so cool with that because I thought it would just be my instructor. I thought I would just go and look cute doing steps that I already know. Well, what she didn't tell me is that there were two other instructors. They were like taking turns trying to kill us. I was about to die like half way through, but I stuck it out. I actually really loved it. I'm just not so sure about sharing that link because I'm pretty sure I almost lost my balance once, went right when I was suppose to go left, and I probably looked like I was going to pass out lol 

So glad Zumba was such a great release for ya last night! and Im sure yu were not as out of it on tape as you think. Nothing makes a crappy day better than a good sweat!! 

Sounds like your crazy day had a silver lining....I wish I could loose my appetite for 24 hours, lol. Question, why do you think your daughter suffer from anxiety attacks? 

Several reasons. The main reason is probably because I have the same problem. It seems though that when she's feeling weak, I'm feeling strong. I sometimes can't manage my own crap, but when my kids need me, I'm always strong. I've learned a lot of coping tools over the years, and I think that the last thing I really needed was the diet and exercise, because to be honest with you, I have never felt better physically and mentally. So, I've been trying to teach my daughter how to cope. I know better than anyone because she thinks exactly like me, so I know what she's dealing with. Usually, it's not as bad as she thinks it is. I just have to talk her through it, and put everything into perspective or prioritize, or organize, and then she does better. 

I know what you mean about the diet and excercise, its my therapy. Your daughter is lucky to have you as a mom, the fact that you understand her and able to be patient with her is great. Sounds like she is getting what she needs.  

Super job Lisa! 

Thank you :)  

I agree with everyone else's comments. You are a great example for your daughter. You mentioned before that you like to plan your whole day out hour by hour; do you think this would help your daughter if she did this for herself on a routine basis (with your help at first)? I'll continue to keep her in my prayers. Is your son feeling better? 

Hi Katie. Yes, my son is feeling much better. Thanks for asking. Makaila just doesn't do well with pressure, but unfortunately it's life. She'll be in the 11th grade next year, so she's going to have a lot more pressure on her then. She's going to have to learn to drive and get a part time job and start looking at colleges, all while staying on task at school. Of course, I'll be there every step of the way. The thing is, I just got my own issues in check recently. So, I'm still learning to take care of myself. I am just trying to teach her what works for me. Writing everything down is key for me. I need to see it on paper so that I can get an idea of exactly what I'm dealing with. When I sat down with her and organized her school work, it was the first time I had ever done that with her. It helped a lot, and I told her that next week she needed to do the same thing on her own. I actually just came from her school. I was dropping off anxiety meds that were prescribed to her yesterday. I've been working with the school to make sure she has a plan if she has an anxiety attack while she's there. I've spoken with her counselor, the assistant principal, and the nurse. So, she knows what to do and who to talk to. Thanks for your concern. 

Wow, mothers have the hardest job in he world.  

Amen to that Bluecreme!