Your post struck me so hard, prayers and blessings to you! If there was one thing that someone on FS could do for you, (where you obviously have turned for answers) I would give you the encouragement to read and follow this man's life changing diet: Dr. Joel Fuhrman. He wrote this remarkable book called, 'Eat To Live' You might just be as amazed as I, (and thousands more) are. Do some research on it, get it at your local library if you have to, and then, AMAZE everyone; especially your doctor and most of all, yourself. :)